Got Lucky

I thought I will not cope with our quiz this day, seeing as I do not spend enough time to give myself a review conferring y time doing my little brothers project along with my cousins favor for the same reason. How can I concentrate on what I am going to study if I know that there are pending works that I have to finish?


I draw to a close doing it at the middle of the night. Though tears were aligned at the tip o my eyes, and was almost exhausted thinking how can I memorized if I have to work on 20 copies. Am I that good to simply pick up all of the important terms and enumerate everything with its own meaning?


The steps that I did was to eat late dinner, relax myself and give myself a rest for a refreshment. Then the rest was depending on my capability and focus.


Gladly, with learn by rote with different terms in the photocopy, I slept half an hour before two in the morning. I planned that I am going to wake up at six in the morning but I did not heard my alarmed. Still my lucky charm called me because he remembered that I have to review more before the quiz, but his purpose was to great me on our day. And my mood turns into gleaming and dazzling atmosphere and my concentrations comes in me,


I don’t have to make my day bothered and irritated. It is my day...Our day and I have to consider that God will always guide on whatever annoying situation I am facing right now. As a result, after the quiz I only got two mistakes out of thirty items. Though it is close to perfect, my smile was painted on my face ‘cause I just feel lucky.

Simple yet Complex

I was late on my first subject today cause by the traffic brought by the road repair I just hope that before the month of December the highways are all cleared. That people don’t have to feel comfortable when they were going on their destinations like me.


By the way, though I was late when I was in the class I did not give a wink on the discussion. This is my subject in General Psychology. It is about a person’s consciousness. The topic shows that if an individual have awareness to his surroundings then he have this consciousness. It relates with different forms levels and there were also seven state regards with that.


Can you imagine how simple things that we were doing has its explanations with case to case basis?


Simple things will turn into perplex blends that reacts inside our body. Even the causes and processes happened when we are dreaming. How interesting is that.


I just love exploring and learning things like this.

Chitchat

Distance might be one of the reasons why an individual misses someone. Yet there are cellular phones that we can use we cannot deny the fact that somehow, it is more contented if we may see them virtually though they are a far from us.

Speaking of what I have said, I am so desperate to surprise that someone who is a very special of mine to see his family even just for a while. Since we are legal I do not feel shyness when I am with his family. What he has will also be mine, and that’s how we appreciate each other’s company. 

But before that, as the day starts it is not my intent to lose myself for him in a way of leaving him a message. It’s just I am not on my mood to give my thought on him. For the reason that seven days a week and twenty four hours a day he always wants me to tell every little things that I am doing, to always keep in touch and we only stop when I have class and we have to nap. I appreciate it, though he was on his work he can still manage himself to spend time with me through text and sometimes a call, though it is expensive.

And because of that, I did not answer any of his call or even replied on his messages until he called on my cousin asking why I am doing this. That all of the sudden I did not even recognize him, even my mother asked me for my reacts, she even asked me for my phone to answer his call, but I regret it. I want to be alone, just me, even for a while or just a day.

But because of what I have done, at last I realize that I was wrong. That’s why I decided to go to their house since his mother asked me to go and I brought my laptop. 

Everyone’s feel pleasure when they’ve seen him. Though there’s a quarrel involves between us, he still can’t avoid telling me that after seeing his family through my way, he can still clear off the attitude that I have shown. He almost cried that day. Seeing them happy made me realized that I should be thankful to have that someone who always give his time and patience for me no matter what, though he is miles away from me.

Job seekers

I don’t know the percentage of my strength as the day ends.


Trying to picture this all day long exploit to push myself to work was not that easy from what I thought. I am not a desperate I just want to be practical.


Money revolves in human life. Every drop of potency that we exert was for money itself. And so lighting up ourselves for the possibilities was important as choosing the decisions that we are going to make.


Unluckily, time was not enough for me to pass the exam for the job, halfway of it I am not sure if I am willing to take it for the fact that my brothers will asked me if the money that they were giving was not enough or I am just giving myself a torn of exhaustion to responsibilities.


All that I wanted to do was to live my life in a practical way, using my mind in order to do the things that I mostly wanted to do. And that bothers me. Maybe I must consider that if time doesn’t fits my schedules I should not force myself. Even I am so tired of waiting to have my own life, I must be patience. Have a lot of patience.

Depart this life

That pretty face we’ve seen in television was the Lady that envoys the Philippine flag.

In any case of what happened yesterday, one exceptional reward that I have watched was the winning of the Miss Philippines at fourth place in the beauty pageant of Miss Universe. I am not giving any judgment about the controversial answer of her, all I know was somehow it copes some of the unnecessary auras that surrounds each and every Filipino.

The country’s delegate came from the province of Bicol and as we were watching television I have told to my father that Bicolania’s beauty was classy and was true Filipina beauty reflects on my mom because she came from bicol, and so she was, it means that I, myself was a Bicolania. With the spark on my eyes bullying my father about the things that attracts him when it comes to my mom, I focused on my mom’s reaction regards to what I have said, and without disappointments she told me what it is that I am talking about, since their ancestry came from Batangas, then she grew up to province of Quezon where she and my father have met, it doesn’t relates on what I have said.

I did not stop, I told my mom that if you don’t have any relations from Bicol, I will have my own, since my grandfather was residing in Bicol ( I am only concluding that I am pretty, when probably I am not), then I have receive I big laugh on my father on saying those things in the middle of our conversations.

Police catastrophe

Thoughts that comes to my mind after the midterm exam was “Nothing can ever be compared to what I am feeling right now, the examinations was done, I will feel more relax now”.


It changed when I see the news in television at the CNN coverage, it was four o’clock in the afternoon when I just came home and seeing the news from international news horrified me.


For all of the beautiful things that we may hear about our country, the most disesteemed news that was plainly broadcast all over the world was the National’s being hostage by the executed police. Due to the profession and benefits that he wanted to regain after years of his service for the country then preceding result was the horrible accident that whacks the globe. And as I am tracking the events I checked my facebook page, it wasn’t very surprising seeing people’s comments about the upset that will be encountering by the person involves. I cannot blame that I am also affected; being a Filipino was something that you can be proud of, but then after what happened this pompous belief reverse as other countries are making their own opinions. We are being generalized, and that was not a joke, since some of the OFW’s specifically in Hong Kong was fired.


How can we ever explain our side into much more possible way without receiving any exaggerating comments from others?


Hearing some humiliating acts and asking the country’s police measures. We should not hold up our beliefs for them, because oftentimes all that we see was their faults with the consideration of their profession but when they have done something good for us it follows the words “it is their duty”, without the hesitation that they were still risking their lives and it isn’t only bounded on their job but for their own integrity as an individuals.

Hot and bothered

Say so, today is a holiday but it makes no difference. Once that you are here on earth, your life will always be busy not even knowing what to do first, next and what are you going to do at the last lacking of assurance what will be the result.

I am good at scheduling my time at home. At home alone, but regards with the time in both home in school I’m getting confused most of the time. Actually, I am not like this before, I have no idea what was it in me right now. Physically worn-out was easier to ease contrast my odds. Wish I’m like a cellular phone capable of recharging its battery whenever it feels empty.

At a deep consent, if no one’s going to place on a plug, and if there’s no electricity present on it. Everything’s worthless.

I’m not in the process of adjustment anymore, it some kind of doing both task just right. Encountering too much pressure on expectations brought me more to blow. Just in case, I don’t want to hear anything from anyone, I just want to do mine with complimentary of what are those I can do. Then after, whatever it maybe, nobody have to feel the blame to anyone or anybody

Blow up when my name was called

Before I go to school I constantly seize myself not to fell out. Not to fell out in a way that when I am in the room I won’t see myself in the middle of a dim site. But not even knowing why is it my attention was not on mine, I can’t avoid not knock myself every after our professor’s calling our name.

I eventually tried to keep in the track as I was listening on what was the reporter was saying, but as time passes by, the voice of my classmate that was reporting seems was becoming stumpy at a time. Badly, after the reporter was done, without flush of being familiar in terms of the story, I was so dumb when our teacher called my name.

My goodness, I did not know how and what do I say. I feel ashamed having no intention to give our teacher a thought that I am not listening. I just miss the last part of the story, but if the question relies on the first part, probably I can say something, unluckily it is not, and this might not be my lucky day. It was one of my subjects that I am so excite to attend to but after if this day I feel that I am going to take my part on the next meeting. I really have to take a nap and give myself time to sleep after what happened today. I just wanted to be on the go when I am attending my subject.

Papers...Reviewers…Pen…Examination...

It is the first day of the week and I have my first exam on my two subjects. 

I’m not that worried with the two subjects because I am very much sure that I studied the following lessons that have tackled.

What it bothers me was the video that we have to make in the euthenics subject. We have to make videos showing the General Directives in an act. Much more was my group; they’ve always giving me enough reason not to pay enough attention in doing this plan. They were not giving time to cooperate and asked what we will do. It seems that they have their own world, so does I?...

But I could not do it. My grades will be down and be risked. Thus, I actually tried to own the work editing the videos. After my exam at seven o’clock in the evening, and when I got home, I uttered myself that I really have to finished it. In one night I have finished the video, the truth is it takes me till seven in the morning before I completed the movie. 

I was very exhausted because at eleven o’clock I have to prepare this video to be burned in the disk. When I was done and I am prepared, I went to school before the time designated, what hurts me, was my group mates was not even there to asked what happened to our project. How cruel is that? I am paying too much attention into something that was not appreciated. I am so tired.

I am truly feeling bad, but I can’t do anything. I included all the names of my group mates in the list when I submitted the video. I cannot be selfish. I don’t want to. I just wanted to give my group mates some fixation for themselves. Hopefully they do.

Blast of house chores

Since I woke up, I have already prepared what I am going to do because this is my free day. I must be feeling lucky even it is Friday the 13th.

First I cleaned our floor both in salas in kitchen. But I make it sure that the things such toys and books were also synchronized. Then I prepared our breakfast as I was cooking I’m preparing the clothes that I have to wash. 

As I finished cooking I wash clothes, since I used a drier I have folded it at the afternoon. When I am not happy with that, I prepared the clothes along with the school uniform to be ironed. I think I have finished it at six in the afternoon then I prepared our dinner.

When I was done, I really can’t control myself right now. I am totally tired. My legs was shaking and my hands was very tired as what I am feeling right now.

As I am doing my entry for this day it’s actually pass at ten in the evening, and I have a class at seven tomorrow. What a tiring day?

I asked my mother to wake me up early for I might ignore my clock if it alarms.

My cousin went to our house not so long ago, she’s inviting me to have a drink, just a little bond, but my body can’t take the worn-out. I just wanted to sleep as I finished this last entry.

Hopefully I will not get dizzy in the class.

In high spirit day

Recently my mind was struggling amid life as what and how it was. I’m not being too emotional I just can’t avoid feeling it.

In fact I don’t know if it is cause by what does the stars tells about me. Yah, if truth be told I’m always reading horoscopes, astrology books, personality related articles, even the meaning of my name.

Along with what I read, it approximating to what was happening to me. (Must be a coincidence)

At a certain moment in time I can feel how an extraordinary person whom I am not expecting to come affects me.

In some ways people may come and go out of your life but considering the things that they are doing for you when they were still beside you is much more important than everything else. Perhaps I don’t want him to be comprised with those who may possibly walk away. I just don’t want to.

I met his family, though he is apart from me, his family invited me in favor of their son’s desire for me to come. They wanted to celebrate his birthday, also to know me much more though it was my second tome to visit them. Things become so serious and formal between us. And I am happy about that. Seeing his family member and knowing their discernment of what was there between us makes me feel special. However I do not fail to remember my family’s side and respect that I should always take.

As I was there I can see how great his families’ intact was. They were closed and that was what I’m dreaming of. To see smiles on people’s faced. He called me on my phone when everyone’s not so busy. He talked to his father and mother then asking them how I was doing there. How do they find me and what could they say about me. I’m shy at first but when I know how I am going to approached then I became calm at last.

Before the end of the celebration, I tell them how thankful I was being with them.

Shaky daylight hours

I feel dizzy and kind of worn-out; I have sleep for already two o’clock in the morning doing some sort of important matters, I didn’t even know that I woke up at nine o’clock in the morning. Actually I have eaten my breakfast at eleven, it was not on time.

When I look at my watch and the time steps at one in the afternoon I prepared the clothes that I have to wash. All I want was to finish this and I am going to take a nap.

But my situations don’t happen as what I want, because my cousin came to our house and asked me a favor. When I have type the documents that she needed, I forgot that it was already four and I’m not eating anything. That’s the reason why I feel like my head was scampering.

Still, though my day wasn’t that good for me I’m at a halt of happiness when I received a call from a special person of mine. Though it is his birthday he assumed to call me up. Life becomes so smooth whenever you get hold of security to someone you care about.

Self scrutiny in the class

It’s funny how a student will perform in front of the class and doing some variety of staging performance without any rehearsals. Actually I along with the group was not well prepared because we have not met a week before this day. Thanks to Paolo who might be the one prepared our script assigned me as a narrator. It is much better rather acting because my bent in that matter was not good enough. Though it was just a class staging. I still feel awkward every so often.

Before this, the class has talk concerning a poem of a rich man. His life and how thus he perceived himself to be on top. It is an ode poem. You might even think that though you have everything in your life when it comes to material things, cannot simplifies that you are happy in every seconds of your life.

In this case I am thinking that having too much in life will kill you.

Am I getting into this point practically or I am just trying to figure out dimension between MONEY and VALUE.

Is it strange? I cannot regret the reality that people want you because they needed something from you and converse you value some people because you can use them in some ways. It’s like a cycle flanked by a boss and his employee.

Isn’t it possible that both sides can be treated as equal? That both of you exist because you needed each other without a mull over material things.

People are walking around with no specific path. Even you are rich either poor, it have no differences when it comes to emotional needs. Funny thoughts followed by severe grave of luxury. Now that’s veracity.

Neglect to see what’s rare

This morning I have already planned all the things that I have to do. 

It is my routine to clean our house in the morning. After cleaning I prepared the clothes that I have to fold and those that I have to be ironed. When I was done in folding the clothes I prepared our food for the lunch then do the rest for almost a half of the day.

I can feel the back aches on my back. As I was doing my chores, I heard that a mail came and it is for my parents. Afterward my nanay and tatay come after me and they wanted me to rto pay ead it to them.

Thanks God, it was the insurance of my parents regarding to their pension. I can see how happy they are as I was reading the content. It says that they have to prepare some of the following requirements to make their insurance updated, and then they can be able to receive their benefits.

I am so amazed how my parents managed their life. A few years ago they use to pay our tuition fees and what’s difficult about that was we were three in college who are studying. Can you even think where and how they get money just to fill all our expenses?

It’s really hard to think how our parents do everything to provide the things that we needed yet we forget to tell them thank as I do.