Blow up when my name was called

Before I go to school I constantly seize myself not to fell out. Not to fell out in a way that when I am in the room I won’t see myself in the middle of a dim site. But not even knowing why is it my attention was not on mine, I can’t avoid not knock myself every after our professor’s calling our name.

I eventually tried to keep in the track as I was listening on what was the reporter was saying, but as time passes by, the voice of my classmate that was reporting seems was becoming stumpy at a time. Badly, after the reporter was done, without flush of being familiar in terms of the story, I was so dumb when our teacher called my name.

My goodness, I did not know how and what do I say. I feel ashamed having no intention to give our teacher a thought that I am not listening. I just miss the last part of the story, but if the question relies on the first part, probably I can say something, unluckily it is not, and this might not be my lucky day. It was one of my subjects that I am so excite to attend to but after if this day I feel that I am going to take my part on the next meeting. I really have to take a nap and give myself time to sleep after what happened today. I just wanted to be on the go when I am attending my subject.

Papers...Reviewers…Pen…Examination...

It is the first day of the week and I have my first exam on my two subjects. 

I’m not that worried with the two subjects because I am very much sure that I studied the following lessons that have tackled.

What it bothers me was the video that we have to make in the euthenics subject. We have to make videos showing the General Directives in an act. Much more was my group; they’ve always giving me enough reason not to pay enough attention in doing this plan. They were not giving time to cooperate and asked what we will do. It seems that they have their own world, so does I?...

But I could not do it. My grades will be down and be risked. Thus, I actually tried to own the work editing the videos. After my exam at seven o’clock in the evening, and when I got home, I uttered myself that I really have to finished it. In one night I have finished the video, the truth is it takes me till seven in the morning before I completed the movie. 

I was very exhausted because at eleven o’clock I have to prepare this video to be burned in the disk. When I was done and I am prepared, I went to school before the time designated, what hurts me, was my group mates was not even there to asked what happened to our project. How cruel is that? I am paying too much attention into something that was not appreciated. I am so tired.

I am truly feeling bad, but I can’t do anything. I included all the names of my group mates in the list when I submitted the video. I cannot be selfish. I don’t want to. I just wanted to give my group mates some fixation for themselves. Hopefully they do.