Loosing my self-control__and Emotionally exhausted

---This entry is different from those I have written the last time. I just want to thank IT four, and I reserve this day a day for them--- 

Due to lots of things that comes to my mind….I really forgot to check if I brought my journal, my things were aligned properly on my computer table, and without even knowing, my journal was under the photocopies of the rest notes in this subject of ITSOCUL, but I am still wishing that my teacher would read my last journal. It is not just the grade that I want, but because, it is just too fuse in me that someone’s reading the activity that I’ve done after a week. It’s nice to know that some people are still concern of how your mind speaks thru your journal. But then, though I have wrote some of my entries, she will not recognized my greetings, and in a nice but in a late way…I want to great her a happy birthday..Hehe…I’m sorry Mam (let me give my greetings, and see your smile in silence…) 

Actually I have lots to say about my entry for today, I did not even recognized that I am enjoying the fourth year company, the relationship that I have built along them, I was very grateful, because at this point my head was not in motion to do what it is that I really have to do, due to some personal matters that occurs within my relationship to my boyfriend. Yes, maybe it is ordinary to hear such issues when it comes to that matter, but being there, in that condition was really difficult. I don’t really know who it is that I wanted to talk to, would I cry? Or if I cry will it make any changes at all. Then again, I really tried to be at focus, but once in my life, what I am doing these last few days was very difficult for me to carry all of it…Since nobody knows what I am really going through. 

It’s nice to know, that the ICBF, that IT Four have introduced me gives me that very thing that there’s still a lot of things that can give a little sense, in spite of all that bothered in my mind. They may not recognized that I am carrying such emotional heartfelt that time, since what I am showing was a great smile on every activity that we were doing. This is a kind of campus ministry, and was starting to create inside the Anthony, I’m new in the club but I can feel their presence; The Lord that they have introduced in me. 

Each every doubts that I felt before, enlightens the second step that I am going to make. I was in a high spirits and I appreciate them more for showing me that. I just want to give them my gratified response. THANK YOU SO MUCH.