Rush…lost points…blessed dinner

I woke up early for I was scheduled to attend a seminar in the church as one of the godmother to be. But I was hesitating for I don’t want to be absent on my class for it was scheduled on a close time. It was eight to eleven in the morning while my class was seven to ten. My mother told me to come, so… I woke up early I get myself up to the seminar. After a while my mother told me to go to school, she will attend the seminar as a proxy of mine. Though I was prepared the time was in rush. And when I was in the school I am late for almost twenty minutes. For that, my journal hasn’t been check. And that’s a big pitiable for my 20 points had gone. Every point counts and that’s really bad.

Well then, it will not be fair for those who come early, but for the reason that my mother gave a second doubt to change the plan, it made me rushed for my time.

As it goes, we were having new discussions. I used to listen and trying to absorbed on what the reporters where saying. I knew that a quiz follows. I have to pass the quiz or otherwise my grade will be sunk in one meeting.( It should not be…)

Gladly, as what I want to happened for the test, I only got nine mistakes. Not that bad after all. Still I am thinking for my lost twenty points. After class I together with my friend went to go a shop for a gift for my godchild’s christening, also a few formal dresses for it. When I was at home, I prepare myself to go my friend’s birthday. I came home at six in the evening then I go to church.

Supposedly the priest will have his dinner to our home. So as the mass ended I go home together with the priest and my family. This day is not that bad after all, because by my lost points for a blessed on having this dinner meal was overwhelmed.

Quote’s Misinterpretation

“I don’t kn0w why some people misinterpret and misjudge you in every word that you say. Those may not be as prevail as it is, but broaden such words that get the wrong impression about, could really hurt those innocents that are put into such situation. I get hurt whenever I see people throwing such words without even knowing to whom those words should be into. Friends will always be friends if you comprehend. Turn back everything into place…..”

I have made this message for a friend. I was trying to relief myself on how I am going to comfort her when everything seems not right. It is cause by misinterpretation of others that leads into an issue. I know it is not easy to pass though such situation, much more if it is about the friendship that may comes in a difficult tragic of relationship.

We always talks about good things. Then one time my friend posted some quotations, and someone reacted too much about it. Then suddenly after hearing that shocking issue, I feel so lame seeing lots of judgments on my friend who posted it, for they were saying lots of words without even knowing the root. And too much to think, there’s no serious thing about that post, for no one or there’s no name specified, moreover it’s just a quotation and everyone read s that, but she’s the only one who’s complaining too much about it. 

Being in between them is quite hard. For an instance both of them were my friends, I don’t want them to think that I am making some irrational things for them. The message that I have made was still kept. I thought that if I send it to my friend who posted the quotation the other might be affected in the latter part that her thought’s was too narrow. In some ways, her mind may be playing that I am exalt the side of the other one. The only thing that I could do was to let them make their ways to bring back things as it goes before.

Unanticipated outcome

I was out for school and I am doing my assignments for the coming week, after a while Glenn, where I am in a relation right now leave a message to wait for him to finished his duty. It is something that we have to converse as what he have told me.

I have been thinking that it is about the schedule of his flight. But in the first place I’m still hoping that my negative thoughts won’t happen.

After an hour of waiting, at 11:40 in the evening, that’s twenty minutes before midnight time in the Philippines he just texted me saying sorry for he can’t celebrate my birthday, anniversary, Christmas and New Year with me, and those best seasons for his family. Now that’s very disappointing!

I felt bad, but seeing him in such lonesomeness about what happened doubled my worries. I don’t know how I am going to encourage. I don’t know what was that first word to say; that right word to say to make him feel alright. He should be in here after a week, as if 7 days, then it made him cracks when it was delayed. And guess what? He’s still be waiting for another 2 months, and that schedule was unsure. Why? It is because his schedule alters due to company’s urgent circumstance. And at this time, the company has built another branch and he was assigned to hold that branch. Yet it is good to think that he is skillful in that job, the thing is, and it was very disappointing to expect something that he’s been planning not to happen. 

He’s sharing what he felt at this very moment. And all I can do was to say words, those frank words, which I think he really don’t want to hear. He said that he almost cried. It only takes a week for him to hug us and to be with us, after a while it will be replace by another two months…

I slept at three in the morning to comfort him even he’s afar from me. I know he could. I always pray that this anger and disappointment will be replaced by faith that everything’s happened for a good.

I’m a nurse for the mean time

I did not make it to attend the event. My little brother was sick. Since we were not having important class for the same day, my mom asked me to take good care of him. I spend my whole day on looking to bunso’s condition.

You know what was it that I have observed the whole day? It was the importance of time for each and every member of the family. I can see how my little brother loves talking with me. We were playing for sometime in the computer. I was teaching him, and sometimes I am teasing him when he was telling some stories on his experiences on school. It’s nice to be back on myself. Sometimes I actually forgot to have some time for being busy in school activities and curriculum.

The other thing is, my tatay and nanay were always together. They were busy on their works. My father was delivering lumber while my mother was busy on listing the orders both in lumber and in sewing the nipa. We have an ordinary life with ordinary business for a living. Good thing about that was, me and my brother finished the studies through it. My kuya was a seaman and my second brother have the same course as me. They already graduated. Actually we were not complete for this Christmas. Both of them were on their perspective work. Still we can have a happy Christmas, there’s no reason to feel sad. Right?.

Not a good day

It’s been a week after the examination and I was in a doubt knowing that one of my subjects was not that good. Yet I knew that it was my mistake, for I didn’t know that the reference for that includes the photocopy and not just the lectures that we usually downloaded to the moodle hub. I’m very disappointed; though I studied and read the lessons for that in lot of times it’s still not enough for it is incomplete. Too bad for me, guess I have to assure and doubled my consent for that as well as the other subjects. Right now, I was thinking that we have lot works to do. Having these projects regards the three systems and research from our major subjects. Being a student was not that easy for those who where spending their time to make their grades in stable.

We we’re having this IT Week and I can’t be able to attend on the first day causes by the desmenoria. It’s a disturbance, but I can’t do anything for that. I stay in house the whole day. In order for me to unlock my thoughts on my pain I keep myself busy in GC…GC for General Cleaning, instead of doing my assignment in some subjects such programming which is seriously difficult on my standard because I can’t even focus into that if I feel something that aches in me. As the whole day goes, my mother felt good for the result. She says that I don’t have to though such doings for it will not do anything good on my pain she says that I should have rest. My side for that was, I don’t want to put myself in lame.

New friend or companion

The IT will be having an event for the week and everyone was preparing to compete for the MTV presentation and Commercials that will be embodied by the mentioned department. We were segregate on what level we are. I am third year irregular so I was included at the third year level. From there I met new faces.

I met someone and he catches my attention. Other than that I am making myself good for the new people who came into my life. Lots of friends mean lots of blessings from above. Though some of them may harm you in the end I am still willing to know them better. I met some of this group when we having the shoots for the music video presentation. I enjoyed it. The theme of the scene was the party in the club. The song that will be put up for that was “Club can’t handle me” by Flo Rida. It was fun, and the group who made it is the information technology and computer programming 3. They were good. They actually have the talent on organizing such activity. Everyone was busy.

We finished the shoot at eight in the evening, we were kind of tired. I go with my friend who I am with always. But we separated in going home. She goes to ride with her auntie and I stayed in the town for a while to have my outdoor dinner with a friend whom I met recently.

It was fun talking with him. It was not hard on how I make myself comfortable with him.

Wish for my day- it'z my biRthdAY!

“..wish qohh?...-to be happY-...simpLe lng..pero mahirap mkuha...msya k ngaun, per0 pno n lng buKaz?..but i hope "happinezz" pA rin ang nsa huLi....yun ang mging 'Last' na ksma pA rin kita....-pag kAya pa, AAYUSIN-.., at pag hnd p rin??babaguHin qn Lang yung vision q,compare sa kung pAno q toh gustong maKita ”

I am happy and overwhelmed indeed as I am receiving lots of greetings from the internet, a call and text on my phone (from my smart and globe number). Nothing compares with the joy that people brings whenever they remember your birthday. For that I construct a general message for everyone composed of:

“---thank u for the greetingz!!(- every message you send me, moving swiftly and appreciated..Aided by the wonders of technology, from 3G mobile to Web that’s ever so lively,..Is treasured, never forgotten, forever appreciated and cherished as priceless...-) By someone whose natal day has been made special by your warmest greetings and wonderful wishes!--♥♥♥ HAVE MY WARM THANK YOU^^”

The only thing that I can say is the word thank you. Though I haven’t celebrated it that well because of the examination, I feel warmed for their greetings. There’s a huge messages posted on my site and I love reading each and everyone’s own style of greeting.

I planned to buy something not for me but for my little brother. He got sick last night and though it’s my birthday I wanted to take good care of him for a while.

Maybe when I opened my site then look at my cellular phone some other greetings had arrived. Right now I have to prepare myself for my next exam.

Thank you lord for this thy gift.

Entertaining Sunday

The week to come will be a busy time for us. The examination for first prelim comes. But before that, this Sunday I attended the christening on my godchild. It was done at ten in the morning then afterward we went to the venue.

There are lots of people attended the event. Those who have familiar faces, as people goes by music stopped. Then, I don’t know what comes into my mind but when I’m not hearing any sounds I went to the karaoke and input combined numbers. As the music begins I sway into the rhythm then sing a little a while. I am not actually good in singing; I don’t even have the voice. But since it was an event together with the people that I know I don’t hesitate to try. My parents were there. As I am seeing my father smiling and enjoying on my funny performance I am saying such words like “para sa tatay ko toh..” then everyone feel rejoice for that.

Everyone cheers and asking for another turn. But those are enough; I did those things for the folks that I don’t want to make the place null. Since they enjoyed maybe I have made it right. Other follows after me.

It was a happy moment and a happy bond as well. After the occasion, I and my parents go home then I started to do my pending works. There are more things to do and I have to focus on it. Fun time is over…this time it is the computer or the notebook that I am facing.

Freeze in a moment

I am warmed yet felt freeze when my kuya texted me. It is warm knowing that he’s doing alright on his work and felt freeze when he was telling some stories about their happenings and playing in snow. Seeing their pictures avoid my parents to be bothered about him in distance.

We use to chat whenever he’s free. At those times I concede that you’ll never feel the worth of someone if he/she will never a far from you. That’s a fact. My kuya look more mature now and still trying to comfort me whenever I’m sharing problems I am encountering here. He always tries to get rid of it from me. That’s what I love the most about him.

As we were looking at his pictures my little brother used to ask me if kuya can bring that snow when he came home. I just told him that, maybe we could put some ice in a blender as an alternate for a snow (laughing). 

It’s not that easy to tell the young one’s if something really suits as a “pasalubong”. Whenever kids see such thing and it looks enjoyable for them, they use to ask if they could have them.

More often, kuya told us that he doesn’t feel sick being far from us, due to his environment. There lots of people that he sees everyday and he don’t feel bored for they were always take a walk whenever the ship was dock. He felt more comfortable now. We may not be complete for this Christmas but knowing that they were in a good condition is enough.

Systematize

I want to set things first at this very moment.

Since I m not doing too much, I scheduled my time on organizing my stuffs. I miss seeing my room and the house on the way I want it.

I am doing it together with my little brother. I remember the previous discussion regards with how you treat your younger brother in some house chores. It made me laugh not for the reason that I can relate on it, the contrast was I didn’t even asked for any when it comes to my younger brother. He is our bunso, we we’re not spoiling him, it’s in a way that he don’t have to that for i can do it myself. But sometimes he was asking if he could help me and that’s what I like about him. I think that’s the charisma of bunso in the family, there’s sweetness on them and every member of the family feel jolly for them. There are times that when he was asking my older brothers for some toys they used to buy it as soon as possible. What’s more about that was it is not an ordinary toy, it is the expensive one then afterward you’ll see it in a messed.

By the way, we finished everything else in the afternoon then afterward my father buy a barbecue for a treat. My father chooses the hot sauce, though he intent it for fun, whether it is sweet or spicy we continue to eat the barbecue.

It’s been a good day and was a cold night before I sleep because of the breeze and rain.

Surfing

On this modern day, inter networking is one of the big controversies that people’s were talking about. It one of the common thing that most people do to be updates, so fort for socializing.


But if you are on twitter, I’m sure many of you now know about fake accounts that plague the social networking giant. From celebrity posers (@MissLindsayL), ridiculously funny fake movie and cartoon fictional characters (@HarryJPotterr, @Lord_Voldemort7, @PeterGriffinn, @God_Damn_Batman), and last but not the least, politicians and business people


(@ceoSteveJobs, @thedearleader, @m_ahmadinejad).


While I was surfing the twitter world a few days ago, I stumble upon a twitter account that bears the picture of the President of the Philippines. When I opened the twitter account, the bio reads: "I am the President of the Republic of the Philippines. Follow me, and I shall tell you where Gloria Arroyo hid the good candies. (Fiction)"


So just like a normal curious twitizen, I decided to follow the account.


When I followed the parody account a month ago, it only has 250+ followers. But now, it has 1500+ followers. No surprise there.


Besides touching upon these social sites, I used to download some Christmas song, for my father asked me for that since the scent of Christmas was moving near. I may not be that excited as it is when Christmas comes, for my family was not always complete. But for better celebrating of this season, I used to stay in our house for a day. Spending time with my parents will be worth though my brothers were not here to celebrate.

Another victory yet another passes for controversies

On this very day, my father was obsessed to watch this one of the most awaiting fight of the year in boxing between Pacquiao and Margarito. Who doesn’t know Pacquiao when it comes to this sport? It’s amazing how he influences not only the Filipinos, also those foreign. He makes a big change whenever his fight will be held. And the good thing was it is another triumph for Manny same as the people’s glory of the country for winning the fight.

As we we’re watching I used to observe my parents reaction, it looks funny seeing them in that way, but even I was very thrilled as I am watching. I admit that the first time I saw his opponent; I was thinking that it will be hard for him to win the fight. But as the game goes, it’s so amazing that all rounds were in favor of him.

The thing is when his success was still fresh, this overwhelms people’s joy, but as I was watching all the interviews about him, there are still some critic’s shows that how will his leadership would be after this triumph. Can he completely show such capability when it comes to this category?

There’s actually different type of people who used to put dust into known personalities, the fact is some were just for the sake of entertaining. At some point or another, things will always be seen in two half way.

A Smile line and One Flashback…

SANTIAGO V. URIARTE NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL (CANUBING NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL)

Though I was tired last night, I can still get up this morning to prepare myself going to school. My schedule wasn’t fix. So I, together with my friend decided to follow up our subject to know what are the subjects to be taken or if there are any subjects that can be credited. At first we were disappointed knowing that we have to spend another two years, then afterward, the department head told us that if we’ve taken the corresponding subjects, we may be allowed to have an o-j-t this summer, then we will be a regular fourth year by next year. That’s awesome. I really wanted to finish my studies now. But before it happened I must see how my present does.

I told my mother about that, she looks happy and alive. My two brothers graduated, and they are waiting on my turn.

As I was writing this entry, I can’t hesitate on thinking about Christmas. I am playing Christmas songs right now and I felt happy, though we’re not complete my friends and cousins will be there and join us.

It’s been a wonderful year. Yet it is full of tragic, unexpected and unusual experiences, but full of surprising blessings at the same time.

All in ALL

I woke up early this Sunday; I decided to do some general cleaning before the start of classes. All that I remember on this day was spending my time cleaning for almost an hour. Then, I changed the curtain from color pink to yellow. I also do some revision on my room. I separated the place of my old book s from my books that I usually read. I wanted to put some on the box, but I was afraid to lose it, I don’t want to see it conked out in the storage.

After the rooms, I organized the things on the kitchen in order, I rub each and every kitchen tools, and then I rest for a while. I forgot that I have to wash my bed clothing and my stuffs, though I am tired my only choice was to continue doing it because my brother’s uniform and mine was still in dirt. I do not know how I did it, but I finished at 6 in the afternoon. After a while, I slept for two hours, then starts ironing the clothes.

Since I am not new on these chores, I wasn’t able to hesitate to do those. I knew that when the classes start my mother will not be able to everything else. This will serve as a little help.

I am so very tired this night and it was a fine night to relax and sleep well.

First Attendance - 2nd Sem SY 2010-2011

The first class that I have attended as the second semester starts is my class for Saturday. Since I’ve finished enrolling the day after, the time of my enrolled subjects are not fixed and I have to check it this coming week. 

It’s been a long vacation. Starting this semester right was a good sign; hopefully my grades will also be consistent as what I’ve got last semester. I shouldn’t feel confident for this is another burst of effort to count of. I hope I can get through as well.

I have been assigned to report for the next meeting on this subject, the next meeting will be my friend. Wish I won’t encounter my first shock, it always happened on every first meeting or first presentation. I am getting so nervous that I can’t almost control the shaking of my knees. By the way, I shouldn’t think of it.

Well, as the class dismissed at 10 in the morning, we decided to go home. When we’re in the terminal, my friends from my previous saw me accidentally they’re going to Naujan. I decided to come to visit the burial of my friend’s mother. We came there at one in the afternoon. Acceptance and moving was not the right word for now. I think it will be much better to say that “we’re here as your friend, you can lean on us if you need to “

After, we decided to go to the park and have a little walk.

I got home at five in the afternoon and told to my mother where I went after class. She also felt sorry for my friend, she knew my friend.

SA TOTOO LANG

May mga pagkakataon na kapag gusto natin ang isang bagay, darating ito sa point na gagawin mo ang lahat para makuha mo ito. Lahat-lahat as in lahat ng paraan, pag’’papasensya, pag’unawa, pagbabalanse sa bawat sitwasyon, pagbibigay ng sympathy kahit alam mo sa sarili mong ikaw ang biktima ng sitwasyon, lalo na yung pagpapaubaya at forgiveness sa ginawa nyang kasalanan gaano man yun kalaki.

Kaya lang, hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon makukuha mo ito, minsan kailangan talaga naten pakawalan ang mga bagay kahit gaano man naten ito gustong hawakan. Sabihin na lang natin na kailangan mauntog na tayo para magising sa kung ano ang totoo at dapat natin paniwalaan. Lalo na kung sya na mismo ang bumibitaw sayo.

Madalas nga napupunta pa yun sa point na gusto na natin putulin ang buhay natin. Tama… yun na ang gusto kong sabihin, ang magpakamatay. Kasi sa sobrang sakit hindi mo na maramdaman sa sarili mong nabubuhay ka pa. Sa sobrang sakit di mo na maramdaman sa sarili mong nahihirapan ka na.

Pinapabayaan ang sarili, hindi kumakain, natutulog, sobrang pag-iisip at pagpapakamartir na kaya pang isalba ang relasyon. Isa lang ang tanong ko dyan, sya ba kahit minsan nakitahan mong nag’alala para sayo?. Sa lahat ng mga nararanasan mo, nagkaroon ba sya ng konteng concern? Huwag kang tanga! Dahil sya di nagpakatanga para sayo.

Isipin mo na lang isang masamang panaginip ang lahat. At habang naghihintay ka, isang araw malalaman mo na lang na nagising ka na pala. Magpapasalamat ka pa sa sarili mo na buti na lang hindi ka masyadong nagpakababa para sa kanya, kasi di mo mararating ang goal mo.

Simpleng bagay lang naman yan, pero sasabihin ko sayo, sobrang hirap gawin “kalimutan at magpatuloy”

Kalimutan mo na, dahil ang pagtatago ng isang bagay na dapat nang ibasura din na yan kaya pang i-recycle. Hindi yan bote at plastic na kaya pang lutuin at ibalik sa dating figure. Mahirap ng ibalik sa da’te ang bagay na wasak na.

Magpatuloy ka dahil kung hahayaan mong manatili sa lugar na yan, ikaw din ang magmumukhang kawawa. Ikaw na nga itong iniwan magpapakita ka pang talunan.

Sa prangka’’han na usapan forget and move on kasi hindi na sya mabalik, hindi na ikaw ang gusto nyang makasama. Huwag mo ng isipin na magyayari pa ang mga pangako nya sayo, sa future nyo, sa mga pagpapa’’asa nya na magkasama kayo habang buhay. Nakakasiguro ka ba na ikaw lang ang sinabihan nya ng mga salitang yan?

Ilan na bang tao ang dumaan sa kanya? Ano sa palagay mo?

Kung ano ang dami ng mga stars sa langit ganun din halos ang populasyon ng tao. At sa bilyon-bilyong tao na yon, imposible naman na di ka na magkita ng isa. Kung ang mga may asawa nga nagkakaroon pa ng kabit, ibig sabihin lang nun sumusobra pa nga di ba?

Magpakatatag ka lang. Ang tao na umaasa sayo, naniniwala na hindi ka mababaw na taong sisirain ang sarili mo para sa mga walang kwentang tao na hindi marunong magpahalaga sa taong kaya silang tanggapin an0’t ano pa man ang bahong meron sila…….andyan pa rin ang pamilya at mga kaibigan mo para damayan ka. Ubusin mo na ang mga luhang pumapatak sa mga mata mo. Kung gusto mo pa rin umiyak at wala ng lumabas, uminom ka pa ng maraming tubig, hindi naman mauubos ang tubig, isipin mo na lang kung gaano kalawak ang dagat sa mundo. Hindi naman siguro ganun kalawak ang maiiLuha mo, i-lahat mo na para isang bagsakan na.

Don’t try too hard. Don’t make your life look misery.

Lahat ng bagay kahit paglaanan mo pa ng sobra-sobra, kulang pa din. Hindi naman nako’kontento ang tao. Sabi lang nila yun pero mamaya makikita mo na lang marami pa silang mga bagay na gusto nilang bilhin. Kaya nagkaroon ng inventor

Kung kaya ka nyang ipagpalit sa iba. Sya pa kayang hindi makaranas na ipagpalit at iwanan. Huwag kang magagalit, lalong wag mong ipagdasal na mangyari yun sa kanya, ikaw rin ang matutukso na malaman pa ang mga bagay na nangyayare sa kanya, tapos pag nakita mo na free na yung tao, magpapaka’’super hero ka jan na i-rescue sya. Walang bayad sa mga super’hero at martir.

Masaya sya ngayun…tama yun…malamang di yun malulungkot kasi may kapalit ka na. Hindi sya na’ubusan. Paano na lang kung yun taong pinuntahan nya, sya pala yung taong di sya kayang pag’tiisan, pag bumalik yan sayo isa lang ibig sabihin nyan at wag na wag kang mabigay. Bakit? Kasi tulad ng paggamit nya sa pangalawa nya para masagot yung pangangailangan nya, same purpose lang ang gagawen nya sayo. Isa ka lang gamit, gagamitin pag kailangan at pag alam nya na pwede ka pag’chagaan, pero pag may nakitang bago, ilalagay ka muna sa isang tabi kasi nakakasiguro sya na dun ka lang….na hindi ka aalis. Hindi ka naman pagkain at bangkay na pwede lagyan ng preservative.

May papalit dyan…Promise!!

Akala mo lang wala, dahil sa ngayun sha pa ang laman ng isip at puso mo. Subukan mo lang yan tanggalin ng kahit konte, tingnan mo next time, wala na din yan. Huwag ka agad maghahanap ng kapalit sa kanya, huwag mo syang gayahin. Nagalit ka nga sa kanya dahil sa ginawa nya sayo, so? Pag ginawa mo yun, it means galit ka na rin sa sarili mo…

Hindi kailangan maging malabo sa kanya ang lahat, dahil kung naging malinaw sa kanya ang pagmamahalan nyong dalawa at ganun ka kahalaga …. Hindi ka nya magagawang iwan.

Hayaan mong maghilom….at dumating ang tamang time….

Magiging Masaya ka ulit…..yun ang totoo…God loves you,he created you from his own reflection.^^

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CRIME

Another day had passed. It was a very tiring day, I have no enough sleep. I am completing one of my projects. I am always updating that one I have assigned for I have to finish it before the examination. Right now, I focus on my clearance. I have given a lot of time for it because my requirements was incomplete I even have to go to my last school to send request to let me be signed in by the records.

Walk…walk…walk…under the sun. It is so hot.

I really have to finish this right now for my scheduled time in doing my pending works. I can do it. I am always keeping up myself on positive things.

By the way, as I am doing my project I have heard a news about a volunteered nurse who was rape by those man who have played with her before the accident happened.

How cruel is that crime? There’s a lot of inhuman sins happening this days, and you will never know who are them were good or not. Gladly the nurse survives and as the case was in process there are some hints about the suspects.

As I am watching the news, I feel pity for her situation, she has lots of bushes and she was very injured. Next to that was news about a call center agent wherein her head was cut, the suspect was her partner saying because of too much jealous.

Feel the fear on people who are alive, not in a ghost. Right?

NOTE:..today is my friends birthday.....she's veronica..one of my closiest friend

..both of us have "joy" on our second name

Careless

This is it. One week before the end of the semester. How can I finished my pending projects if my own groupmates doesn’t even care about it. I am always hesitating on doing such project for they are being too dependent on one.

Unluckily that one is me. Luck of sleep and worrying to my internet connection. Doubled the work, doubled the expenses then my group mates doesn’t even care about it. We were three in the group, one was a little occupied about I have assigned her, then he sends the it on my mail. Whereas the other one, I have assigned him his partition for the project after I asked him where is it, he told me that he lost his copy that I gave to him, then he is asking me for another copy, I have spent an hour this night to find that copy, he texted me, “na’san bahala ka, wala akong kopya”. The fact is, it is not my fault if he lost it, secondly he cannot blame for I have given his part right after our professor give us the requirements for it, then he was telling me those words.

When I have found it, I give a response. He did not reply I’m just hoping that he will do his part for that.

carry out constantly

I have remembered that we have to submit our project in literature before the finals and our last meeting will be tomorrow. I do not know if I have get down the right story for French Literature. Actually I was done in the first four, when I asked my friend she was not also sure.  My photocopy is incomplete because before the pre’finals I wasn’t able to borrow the book because it is not available. What was written in my notebook is Feast of Spring, but everytime I tried to search for it what was showing is the Silence of Spring. I tried to look moreover and it is the same.

Then I was conscious what the real title was.

I have taken my glance foe my previous work. I think I have to collaborate more of my reaction. I love reading the story; it only bothers me due to that one last story.

I must ask my classmate. Later I will prepare myself in going to school and assure what the story was. This week makes me so weak. Lots of projects and lots of responsibilities to make. Next week was another harsh for it will be our finals. Thanks God, however though this sem becomes a tough one for me, I never hesitated that much on doing it.

Result?  Probably a super’ over drained body and mind.

Meet the Parents

My second brother just came. He’s not been here for almost a year for he is working in Cavite. When he came he is with his girlfriend named Jane. I am calling her ate before. it is her first time here. Also it was the first time that kuya Archie brought a girl to meet our parents. Consequently I was happy for the two of them.

All of our cousins who’s our neighbor keep on tweaking me when will bring mine. I’m just responding them a line of smile on my lips. I do have, but he’s can’t be here because his out of the country.

I think this day was adorable. Talks are around about me and my brothers. Our older brother named kuya Ryan introduced his girlfriend for the first time, same as my second kuya last year.

Meeting my two future sisters’ was good. They are both nice. But my brothers have no plan to have their own family, the only purpose was to know see if their chosen person to love fits the family. Meaning permission on both sides was also important.

Exertion

she's cristy..and we're awake ''tiL 4 in the morning....

..........>>>>>>  Too much work to be done as the finals comes. I am not attending our intramurals more often for the reason that I have to give partition for my projects; the other was my obligation here in the house. My life is not an ordinary thing as what other students have, or maybe I am just having a wrong impression for some things but that the way how I observe every single moment of mine this last few days.

Maybe half of it was true. My daily routine was cleaning the house before and after going to school. That before I do something I have to assure that I have cooked food for that time, I have given my time to my younger brother for his home works or take care of him. And the time that I think I could give for myself was from nine in the evening ‘’til two in the morning. And I can’t keep myself from getting tired.

Glimpse from my previous years

It is the first day of the week, I am prepared for the next subject’s examination and I knew that I can answer it very well.

After school and I got home at house, I assure that I have finished all my chores: I have cooked the food for dinner, clean things that are looking unnecessary to my sight, help my brother for his assignment and everything else.

I have planned that I am going to do my project excluding in that plan was a block out. My plan has cancelled so I take my time staring at my old pictures with my friends. One of the best bonding that I have experienced was being with them. To experienced the life of a writer. Being a writer was one of my dreams and luckily it happened to me even in an instance. Not for a reason that I wanted my name to be publish. Actually at my first year on my previous school I only get my chance to attend their ordeal for new staffers it was the last day of the screening, because I am hesitating to join at first, I am running away of time to pass some requirements, two hours before the cut hours, I prepared my information then I took my psychological exam. The next morning, I was shock when someone excused me on my class and told me that I have passed the exam the next step will be the screening at the same day. The day after I was getting nervous to know the result, if you had passed it you will be called again, but the same guy went to my subject class and asked for my excuse in the class to get ready for the written exam. I have no any idea and was not prepared what I have written was all the things that comes into my mind.

Week had pass and I did not heard any news about the selection, then someone told me “congratulations” for seeing my name at the bulletin board, for all the students who have taken the screening three of us had pass it and I was in the third number. On that day I used to think that three is my lucky number.

How tragic it is to reminisce those times. I have spent three years of my life as one of the staffers, every single day of my life was a like a fairytale knowing that other people were reading the stories that I have created and all the stuff that we’ve been publishing. I miss writing right now, but I believe that though I am not on the same school where I have given myself to progress on that field at some way I can still continue what I have starts maybe not now but in the near future.

Neglect to see what’s rare

In shape day

Because of the bad weather last night and not being able to write the summary as well as the reaction for the story that we have to submit on this day I have spent my time reading the two story entitled ILIAD, the other was Odyssey. We have talked about ILIAD the last meeting. For the reason that what I have understand about the story was not that enough I have read it from the top. I actually spent half of my day reading it as if I was repeating every single line whenever I want to know it much better. It is kind of mind-numbing not only because the story was lengthy, and to a certain extent was the characters not that easy to categorize. Somehow I can relate much enhanced to the following story.

Though I came late because I have to print my paper, one thing that I like the most on this day was when our instructor asked for our reaction about the second story. I have called second on the slot, I feel nervous because there are times that I am having trouble with myself in such situation, I just continue to carve up what I know and I am not disappointed for seeing that my classmates where listening and was being able to keep up in the story. Hopefully the following day will be nice as this day. I have a pack of knowledge behind before I go to my class. I just wish time would lope slow so I can equalize all my subjects for this week.

Middling day

This day should be my day to go to church, but my mother was already prepared to go to church so early that I did not even notice that nobody was in the house except me and my younger brother. Speaking of my younger brother...Yah right, I seize to be awaken by his cries for he wasn’t set out with my parents I feel pity on him. Although I feel that way I avoid to let him see me in that act for the reason that whenever I did that he was pretending to act more dramatic. 

Instead I prepared the things that must be done in the house before I take my hour n reviewing my examination for tomorrow. That subject will be a last one drop of this period’s examination, part one was written it will be for tomorrow, then the second part was an actual that we are going to do individually next meeting.

Before the noon comes, my parents were already in the house. They buy some pasalubong, grapes for my younger brother who stop acting like an immature baby after seeing it, along with corn and bread which was my favorite.

This afternoon I have made a playtime hour for my niece, my cousin’s daughter and to relax myself at the same. And at night I get a glance to review once more then conferred a few hours to teach my cousin in computer matters.

One way or another

I never assumed that I can get a little clever mood as I am taking my examination this day. I have only studied the lectures last night and I wondered how did I remember some even not that much.

Luck is still plane in me or maybe it’s not luck for I have read the scope stories last week for an instance I can still remember how they are structured. Also even I had took my review last night for two hours because I can’t take how nodding I was I assured that I will wake up as my alarm clocks this morning to take another shot on my photo copies.

There comes a time that though I have read a story once and I am not reading it the second time, the sequence of events retained in my mind.

I don’t know why, but in case of this category I cannot hid that as unusual as they are, I can quickly understand it. After our examination I did not even anticipate signing a cross, it may not be perfect but somehow it might be in the pass rate.

When I got home, though I wasn’t get enough sleep I tried to wash my clothes, take a little time to clean the house, and at eleven o’clock in the evening I ironed the uniforms and some of the clothes, then after I laid my drained body on my bed.

Lack of time

I do not know if I am going to have trouble with my subject. It is not that easy to ponder subject at this time. Each is having lots of remarks that I have to memorize. Last day I have given my time on reviewing one of my subjects. This day I have studied to and both are not that easy to remember because it is mixing in my mind and this subject was for tomorrow. 

Other I haven’t started in studying the literature. All I know was the knowledge that I have gained for the last meeting in this period. And I we have to read an advance for the next topic because mam will get some topics on it.

Probably I am really having a trouble on memorizing each of the chapters if I am going to start it tomorrow (Friday) for the examination which is Saturday. Time management and self center of attention to my subject is what I needed.

Oh my, with any luck I wish I’d still be consistent somehow.

Fieldtrip and Peanut

Only I and one of my friends weren’t able to go with the seminar that will be held on UP Diliman. I do not have my financial problem but because my friend can’t come, I decided not to go as well.

I do not know well the students who are in the event cause I am a transferee though I have met them in some of my classes. I want to have some time to bond with the others but somehow it will be difficult for me to make it naturally and more rapidly for forthrightly to say they even have a deep bonding and maybe I might experience the OP situation a little.

Still it is in favor in me because the examination was on the same date.

I do not know what goes into my mind but I love eating chocolate and peanut. They say eating peanut was good whenever you are memorizing something. Since we will have recitation for tomorrow I buy a plastic of chocolate..”chatlet” was the name of the brand. I also buy banana chip, it have no connection with scientific basis that I am talking to.

As this day pass until midnight my mouth taste like there will be no tomorrow for that candy..hehe

I think it was effective. I just hope that it will be effective also for the next days.

Not that bad

I am crumpled and sluggish causes by this painful cramping period.

I am experiencing it monthly, it almost made me cried. It feels like my abdomen was flouting because of ache. Though I am aware that it is habitual to happen it still slay me.

I feel lazy. All I wanted was to stay in my bed but I must attend my class at five in the afternoon until eight. Much worst the rain falls harder. I’m so disaster-prone before I went to school. I was just controlling myself in order to hide this dull pain.

As I was in the jaunt my high school teacher was in the same car where I was. She was shocked when she seen me. Actually she’s one of the prestigious teachers that remain in my mind. I became interested in English the first time I’ve noticed her teaching. He caught my eyes with her fluency. In fact I thank her and she was annoyed for the reasons I have said that. I just uttered it and to make the talks go on the other mode she asked me what I am taking and how I am.

It is more relaxing seeing one of person who inspired you before. I showed my self-effacing attitude when she put in the picture that I’m still pretty. (I was laughing out loud) Do I? But I think one of her complement was my weigh up; I’m kind of chubby right now unlike before. How nice it is to hear such phrase from her.

My day wasn’t that bad. Though I came home at 9:30 in the evening and was lying in my bed as I got there it still feels slightly good.

Get on your nerves

This morning I was prepared for our report about Emotion and Intellectual Quotient though I have made my research last night. I have my interest when it comes to this topic. It’s one of the categories that I wanted to know more about. I was late for five to six minutes because I went first to shop for the printing of my copy, also due to traffic again. Such a big disturbance, but it is good transportation then after.

I love speaking in front much more if I knew what I am going to say, ofcourse. Sharing different thoughts and knowledge for what I have read last night was a big help and I can relate. This subject were I have reported don’t give me pressure this time.

But after my first subject and I attended Euthenics where we have to perform in group and sang the hymn bothered me a lot. Some of my group mates do not cooperate and was not attending our scheduled meeting. And now?..our performance was worst, some did not memorize the songs. After the presentation I spoke my side to one of my members, I told him the reason why he did not attended, he just converse me in inappropriate manner telling me that I should not blame him. Well I am not blaming him I am just asking. Then one of the member told me that his reason was he have wached a game and do not have time to attend.

Supposedly my first reaction was disappointed I have risk a lot of time and transport in the school 45 minutes on a trip before I get there and after I arrived they will not attend only because of that grounds.

I do not want to say anything but for all the players that I have met, he’s the only one who does not have fitting manner. Walking out and sheering words a lot but did not even do something for the improved of the group. After what happened the members just told me not to give a single gaze on him for he does not understand what the other members have done. Because he doesn’t care and they told me that they don’t have any hard feeling for me for all I wanted was to unite the group.

Fate, future, Prediction..Name

Saturday morning. I thought that I’ll be late but I’m not.

Huh! We have learned a lot of stories from different continents. Though all of those stories were high classic and was nice to know, the epic that we are in right now was a little complicated because of the names of the characters.

One of my significance as I hearing the names of the Gods and Goddesses was their role as indicated on their names. It was personally related in me in the sense that my closest grandmother who had passed away last year has awareness in such topic. When I ask her how do they lay my name on me, she said that it speak about my birth month.

Before I continue, my name don’t was not related to the name of the Goddesses…hehe.. Since I am in into names; she told me that my second name which was joy is from the song “Joy to the World”, yet it came from a rhyme, I do not have the gift for good singing. Anyway regarding with my first name I did not now how do they elaborate it. My lola told me that the month of December was named after Javier. The name Javier was altered in a female name as Juvy? Is it closely near...?

Another fact was my birth month was ruled by the planet Jupiter which was then names as Jove. That’s it.

But if I will be asked what name do I love most from the Greeks, I want Hestia who was the virgin goddess of the hearth (both private and municipal) and the home.

Got Lucky

I thought I will not cope with our quiz this day, seeing as I do not spend enough time to give myself a review conferring y time doing my little brothers project along with my cousins favor for the same reason. How can I concentrate on what I am going to study if I know that there are pending works that I have to finish?


I draw to a close doing it at the middle of the night. Though tears were aligned at the tip o my eyes, and was almost exhausted thinking how can I memorized if I have to work on 20 copies. Am I that good to simply pick up all of the important terms and enumerate everything with its own meaning?


The steps that I did was to eat late dinner, relax myself and give myself a rest for a refreshment. Then the rest was depending on my capability and focus.


Gladly, with learn by rote with different terms in the photocopy, I slept half an hour before two in the morning. I planned that I am going to wake up at six in the morning but I did not heard my alarmed. Still my lucky charm called me because he remembered that I have to review more before the quiz, but his purpose was to great me on our day. And my mood turns into gleaming and dazzling atmosphere and my concentrations comes in me,


I don’t have to make my day bothered and irritated. It is my day...Our day and I have to consider that God will always guide on whatever annoying situation I am facing right now. As a result, after the quiz I only got two mistakes out of thirty items. Though it is close to perfect, my smile was painted on my face ‘cause I just feel lucky.

Simple yet Complex

I was late on my first subject today cause by the traffic brought by the road repair I just hope that before the month of December the highways are all cleared. That people don’t have to feel comfortable when they were going on their destinations like me.


By the way, though I was late when I was in the class I did not give a wink on the discussion. This is my subject in General Psychology. It is about a person’s consciousness. The topic shows that if an individual have awareness to his surroundings then he have this consciousness. It relates with different forms levels and there were also seven state regards with that.


Can you imagine how simple things that we were doing has its explanations with case to case basis?


Simple things will turn into perplex blends that reacts inside our body. Even the causes and processes happened when we are dreaming. How interesting is that.


I just love exploring and learning things like this.

Chitchat

Distance might be one of the reasons why an individual misses someone. Yet there are cellular phones that we can use we cannot deny the fact that somehow, it is more contented if we may see them virtually though they are a far from us.

Speaking of what I have said, I am so desperate to surprise that someone who is a very special of mine to see his family even just for a while. Since we are legal I do not feel shyness when I am with his family. What he has will also be mine, and that’s how we appreciate each other’s company. 

But before that, as the day starts it is not my intent to lose myself for him in a way of leaving him a message. It’s just I am not on my mood to give my thought on him. For the reason that seven days a week and twenty four hours a day he always wants me to tell every little things that I am doing, to always keep in touch and we only stop when I have class and we have to nap. I appreciate it, though he was on his work he can still manage himself to spend time with me through text and sometimes a call, though it is expensive.

And because of that, I did not answer any of his call or even replied on his messages until he called on my cousin asking why I am doing this. That all of the sudden I did not even recognize him, even my mother asked me for my reacts, she even asked me for my phone to answer his call, but I regret it. I want to be alone, just me, even for a while or just a day.

But because of what I have done, at last I realize that I was wrong. That’s why I decided to go to their house since his mother asked me to go and I brought my laptop. 

Everyone’s feel pleasure when they’ve seen him. Though there’s a quarrel involves between us, he still can’t avoid telling me that after seeing his family through my way, he can still clear off the attitude that I have shown. He almost cried that day. Seeing them happy made me realized that I should be thankful to have that someone who always give his time and patience for me no matter what, though he is miles away from me.

Job seekers

I don’t know the percentage of my strength as the day ends.


Trying to picture this all day long exploit to push myself to work was not that easy from what I thought. I am not a desperate I just want to be practical.


Money revolves in human life. Every drop of potency that we exert was for money itself. And so lighting up ourselves for the possibilities was important as choosing the decisions that we are going to make.


Unluckily, time was not enough for me to pass the exam for the job, halfway of it I am not sure if I am willing to take it for the fact that my brothers will asked me if the money that they were giving was not enough or I am just giving myself a torn of exhaustion to responsibilities.


All that I wanted to do was to live my life in a practical way, using my mind in order to do the things that I mostly wanted to do. And that bothers me. Maybe I must consider that if time doesn’t fits my schedules I should not force myself. Even I am so tired of waiting to have my own life, I must be patience. Have a lot of patience.

Depart this life

That pretty face we’ve seen in television was the Lady that envoys the Philippine flag.

In any case of what happened yesterday, one exceptional reward that I have watched was the winning of the Miss Philippines at fourth place in the beauty pageant of Miss Universe. I am not giving any judgment about the controversial answer of her, all I know was somehow it copes some of the unnecessary auras that surrounds each and every Filipino.

The country’s delegate came from the province of Bicol and as we were watching television I have told to my father that Bicolania’s beauty was classy and was true Filipina beauty reflects on my mom because she came from bicol, and so she was, it means that I, myself was a Bicolania. With the spark on my eyes bullying my father about the things that attracts him when it comes to my mom, I focused on my mom’s reaction regards to what I have said, and without disappointments she told me what it is that I am talking about, since their ancestry came from Batangas, then she grew up to province of Quezon where she and my father have met, it doesn’t relates on what I have said.

I did not stop, I told my mom that if you don’t have any relations from Bicol, I will have my own, since my grandfather was residing in Bicol ( I am only concluding that I am pretty, when probably I am not), then I have receive I big laugh on my father on saying those things in the middle of our conversations.

Police catastrophe

Thoughts that comes to my mind after the midterm exam was “Nothing can ever be compared to what I am feeling right now, the examinations was done, I will feel more relax now”.


It changed when I see the news in television at the CNN coverage, it was four o’clock in the afternoon when I just came home and seeing the news from international news horrified me.


For all of the beautiful things that we may hear about our country, the most disesteemed news that was plainly broadcast all over the world was the National’s being hostage by the executed police. Due to the profession and benefits that he wanted to regain after years of his service for the country then preceding result was the horrible accident that whacks the globe. And as I am tracking the events I checked my facebook page, it wasn’t very surprising seeing people’s comments about the upset that will be encountering by the person involves. I cannot blame that I am also affected; being a Filipino was something that you can be proud of, but then after what happened this pompous belief reverse as other countries are making their own opinions. We are being generalized, and that was not a joke, since some of the OFW’s specifically in Hong Kong was fired.


How can we ever explain our side into much more possible way without receiving any exaggerating comments from others?


Hearing some humiliating acts and asking the country’s police measures. We should not hold up our beliefs for them, because oftentimes all that we see was their faults with the consideration of their profession but when they have done something good for us it follows the words “it is their duty”, without the hesitation that they were still risking their lives and it isn’t only bounded on their job but for their own integrity as an individuals.

Hot and bothered

Say so, today is a holiday but it makes no difference. Once that you are here on earth, your life will always be busy not even knowing what to do first, next and what are you going to do at the last lacking of assurance what will be the result.

I am good at scheduling my time at home. At home alone, but regards with the time in both home in school I’m getting confused most of the time. Actually, I am not like this before, I have no idea what was it in me right now. Physically worn-out was easier to ease contrast my odds. Wish I’m like a cellular phone capable of recharging its battery whenever it feels empty.

At a deep consent, if no one’s going to place on a plug, and if there’s no electricity present on it. Everything’s worthless.

I’m not in the process of adjustment anymore, it some kind of doing both task just right. Encountering too much pressure on expectations brought me more to blow. Just in case, I don’t want to hear anything from anyone, I just want to do mine with complimentary of what are those I can do. Then after, whatever it maybe, nobody have to feel the blame to anyone or anybody

Blow up when my name was called

Before I go to school I constantly seize myself not to fell out. Not to fell out in a way that when I am in the room I won’t see myself in the middle of a dim site. But not even knowing why is it my attention was not on mine, I can’t avoid not knock myself every after our professor’s calling our name.

I eventually tried to keep in the track as I was listening on what was the reporter was saying, but as time passes by, the voice of my classmate that was reporting seems was becoming stumpy at a time. Badly, after the reporter was done, without flush of being familiar in terms of the story, I was so dumb when our teacher called my name.

My goodness, I did not know how and what do I say. I feel ashamed having no intention to give our teacher a thought that I am not listening. I just miss the last part of the story, but if the question relies on the first part, probably I can say something, unluckily it is not, and this might not be my lucky day. It was one of my subjects that I am so excite to attend to but after if this day I feel that I am going to take my part on the next meeting. I really have to take a nap and give myself time to sleep after what happened today. I just wanted to be on the go when I am attending my subject.

Papers...Reviewers…Pen…Examination...

It is the first day of the week and I have my first exam on my two subjects. 

I’m not that worried with the two subjects because I am very much sure that I studied the following lessons that have tackled.

What it bothers me was the video that we have to make in the euthenics subject. We have to make videos showing the General Directives in an act. Much more was my group; they’ve always giving me enough reason not to pay enough attention in doing this plan. They were not giving time to cooperate and asked what we will do. It seems that they have their own world, so does I?...

But I could not do it. My grades will be down and be risked. Thus, I actually tried to own the work editing the videos. After my exam at seven o’clock in the evening, and when I got home, I uttered myself that I really have to finished it. In one night I have finished the video, the truth is it takes me till seven in the morning before I completed the movie. 

I was very exhausted because at eleven o’clock I have to prepare this video to be burned in the disk. When I was done and I am prepared, I went to school before the time designated, what hurts me, was my group mates was not even there to asked what happened to our project. How cruel is that? I am paying too much attention into something that was not appreciated. I am so tired.

I am truly feeling bad, but I can’t do anything. I included all the names of my group mates in the list when I submitted the video. I cannot be selfish. I don’t want to. I just wanted to give my group mates some fixation for themselves. Hopefully they do.

Blast of house chores

Since I woke up, I have already prepared what I am going to do because this is my free day. I must be feeling lucky even it is Friday the 13th.

First I cleaned our floor both in salas in kitchen. But I make it sure that the things such toys and books were also synchronized. Then I prepared our breakfast as I was cooking I’m preparing the clothes that I have to wash. 

As I finished cooking I wash clothes, since I used a drier I have folded it at the afternoon. When I am not happy with that, I prepared the clothes along with the school uniform to be ironed. I think I have finished it at six in the afternoon then I prepared our dinner.

When I was done, I really can’t control myself right now. I am totally tired. My legs was shaking and my hands was very tired as what I am feeling right now.

As I am doing my entry for this day it’s actually pass at ten in the evening, and I have a class at seven tomorrow. What a tiring day?

I asked my mother to wake me up early for I might ignore my clock if it alarms.

My cousin went to our house not so long ago, she’s inviting me to have a drink, just a little bond, but my body can’t take the worn-out. I just wanted to sleep as I finished this last entry.

Hopefully I will not get dizzy in the class.

In high spirit day

Recently my mind was struggling amid life as what and how it was. I’m not being too emotional I just can’t avoid feeling it.

In fact I don’t know if it is cause by what does the stars tells about me. Yah, if truth be told I’m always reading horoscopes, astrology books, personality related articles, even the meaning of my name.

Along with what I read, it approximating to what was happening to me. (Must be a coincidence)

At a certain moment in time I can feel how an extraordinary person whom I am not expecting to come affects me.

In some ways people may come and go out of your life but considering the things that they are doing for you when they were still beside you is much more important than everything else. Perhaps I don’t want him to be comprised with those who may possibly walk away. I just don’t want to.

I met his family, though he is apart from me, his family invited me in favor of their son’s desire for me to come. They wanted to celebrate his birthday, also to know me much more though it was my second tome to visit them. Things become so serious and formal between us. And I am happy about that. Seeing his family member and knowing their discernment of what was there between us makes me feel special. However I do not fail to remember my family’s side and respect that I should always take.

As I was there I can see how great his families’ intact was. They were closed and that was what I’m dreaming of. To see smiles on people’s faced. He called me on my phone when everyone’s not so busy. He talked to his father and mother then asking them how I was doing there. How do they find me and what could they say about me. I’m shy at first but when I know how I am going to approached then I became calm at last.

Before the end of the celebration, I tell them how thankful I was being with them.

Shaky daylight hours

I feel dizzy and kind of worn-out; I have sleep for already two o’clock in the morning doing some sort of important matters, I didn’t even know that I woke up at nine o’clock in the morning. Actually I have eaten my breakfast at eleven, it was not on time.

When I look at my watch and the time steps at one in the afternoon I prepared the clothes that I have to wash. All I want was to finish this and I am going to take a nap.

But my situations don’t happen as what I want, because my cousin came to our house and asked me a favor. When I have type the documents that she needed, I forgot that it was already four and I’m not eating anything. That’s the reason why I feel like my head was scampering.

Still, though my day wasn’t that good for me I’m at a halt of happiness when I received a call from a special person of mine. Though it is his birthday he assumed to call me up. Life becomes so smooth whenever you get hold of security to someone you care about.

Self scrutiny in the class

It’s funny how a student will perform in front of the class and doing some variety of staging performance without any rehearsals. Actually I along with the group was not well prepared because we have not met a week before this day. Thanks to Paolo who might be the one prepared our script assigned me as a narrator. It is much better rather acting because my bent in that matter was not good enough. Though it was just a class staging. I still feel awkward every so often.

Before this, the class has talk concerning a poem of a rich man. His life and how thus he perceived himself to be on top. It is an ode poem. You might even think that though you have everything in your life when it comes to material things, cannot simplifies that you are happy in every seconds of your life.

In this case I am thinking that having too much in life will kill you.

Am I getting into this point practically or I am just trying to figure out dimension between MONEY and VALUE.

Is it strange? I cannot regret the reality that people want you because they needed something from you and converse you value some people because you can use them in some ways. It’s like a cycle flanked by a boss and his employee.

Isn’t it possible that both sides can be treated as equal? That both of you exist because you needed each other without a mull over material things.

People are walking around with no specific path. Even you are rich either poor, it have no differences when it comes to emotional needs. Funny thoughts followed by severe grave of luxury. Now that’s veracity.