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Everything you want comes after you stop looking for it...

This is my recorded entry for this day........ hope you can relate in here guise....

My kuya's Wedding

May both of you get all the happiness in the world. 

Have a great married life.

I'm so proud that the two of you have found love in each other. 

I'm sure together you will overcome all the storms in your life thus, 

making your marriage even stronger. 

Have a happy married life.

Where are we...... Anyway?

Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger. 

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What’s important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not part of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, you don’t need to be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try. 

You’ll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting you. If you don’t get hurt, then you won’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time, though hurting is there to test you, t help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you, that’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. 

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want to remember what you deserve. 

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach another is to risk involvement; to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk being love in return. 

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain. 

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; that they choose to be and whether they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. 

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then you will experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk and if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall inlove.

UntitLed :)

They say the past is the past, but it’s not like you won’t ever look back. There will always be that one day when you randomly decide to look back at the good times you’ve had and maybe even the bad times. They tell you to forget your past and let it go, but really the past is pretty important, including all the crap that was brought into it. Without making mistakes, having regrets, being negative, losing the few people here and there: without any of that, you wouldn’t learn how to accept the changes in life you are going to face all the time, you wouldn’t realize who are the people that actually matter to you. Sometimes you have to be negative to knock some positivity into your life. Sometimes you’re going to have to make a mistake one after another, to finally figure out what you need to do. 

Sometimes people are meant to have broken hearts and broken relationships, for you to have a chance to fight back for what you want or you want to see if there really was something between you and that significant other. We have to remember the past. Why? Well because the past is the what made you of who you are today.

Comfortable Relationship

.... Wink to think of it ........

I think we are all just looking for that one person that we can be ourselves around, that one person who will love you and accept who you are, your silly awkward side and your serious side too.

We are all looking for that comfortable relationship, you know? You don’t care what you are doing because as long as that one special person is next to you then you are happy, whether it’s going out or just having lazy day at home watching movies and eating food, you cherish all these moments with them because that special person is the one you enjoy seeing and being around every day, that person is someone you can turn to with all your problems and they will be there for you through it all.

Every conversation, hug, kiss or whatever you always look forward to because in your heart you truly love them and you wouldn’t have it any other way, you know? It’s that relationship that through whatever happens you are going to stick by their side and support them. It’s simply that “Comfortable relationship” where you can be yourself and not be afraid of them judging you, after all “Love” is “Acceptance” of one another regardless of “Flaws” or anything else.

Video Trip To Bicol

biCOL.........

here at Sipocot Camrines Sur.... we are on our way to Albay

Kuya koh

Mayon Volcano shot!

I pray to you oh Mama Mary....... i wish to  be happy.....and i'm also wishing for the happiness of my family as well

EMBARCADERO

Going back to Mindoro

Worth

Don't worry he'll miss you
You're the best he could get and he blew it.
Don't let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. it's not. He screwed up,
and you absolutely did nothing wrong
You gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. And
honestly, he's not mature enough. He's not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you
with every fiber of his being and been with you every spare second he could.
But he didn't and now he's gone.
But don't cry. Don't call him telling him you miss him. Don't IM him, message him, Don't comment hom, don't talk to him in the hallways. Just pretend you don't care.
And don't be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake. And if you
want to go, go with him again. But make him work for you.
Don't be his doormat. Don't let him in the first time he rings the bell.
Make him back every day until you trust him enough. If he doesn't come back after a couple of tries, just let him go. But if he comes back everyday, then he's worth it. Trust me he's worth it.

On my way to Graduation

For every ending

there's a new beginning;

for every memory,

there's a dream ahead

The happy times I've had so far,

The people I've met

Will always be a part of my life

I'll never quite forget...

But ever better, brighter days

Are waiting just for me,

So i'll dream for my dreams...

and start in now

To make them all come true!

Yesterday afternoon I went to pick up my graduation toga with college friends, I got kinda emotional about it because this was a hard and long journey for me, but I made it! I knew this day was close and I didn't care much since isn't the first time I graduate but this time is (so far and for now) my last graduation. I wanted to share this photo with you all since this process ts really important to me.

she's Lady...... one of my closest friend.. she's bubbly.. and that what i love about her

one of my best of friend "Jelai".. through thick and thin...... we became friend since day care.. hmmm we are became bff for almost 18 years..

she's my MOM...... ^^,,,,,,

Again

.. may nkabasa ng last blog ko...

bakit ba di nila maintindihan na.. di ko na mahal si ex .. naka'move on na ako.. and i don;t have any reason to fall in love with him..
I am not using anyone para lang maka move on... try to read my previous entry..once again.. Please do understand before you say anything....

SAD

"When you have a good heart: You help too much. You trust too much. You give too much. You love too much. And it always seems you hurt the most."

Hanggang sa dumating na yung point na mararamdaman mo biglang malungkot ka. 

Hay, nakakapagtaka na kasi minsan. Ang hirap ipaliwanag ng thoughts ko ngaun. I don’t know if it is the thoughts or my emotions, magkaiba pa rin naman sila di ba? 

Malungkot? 

Bakit ba ako malungkot? 

Hmm… dapat ko ba ilista lahat dito…. Siguro kailangan, sa pagsusulat lang naman yung way pra mabawasan mga negative vibes na dumarating sa’ken. Mula sa listahan ko: 

1. Una na sa listahan - yung pakiramdam na sa isang relationship you did everything, your loyalty, honesty, trust, perfect girlfriend wanna be… pero lumbay pa din.. nawala si boyfriend 

2. Hm.. pangalawa - yung person na nakasama ko, a girlfrnd na pinagkatiwalaan ko at tinuring kong kapatid nagging girlfriend ng ex ko. 

3. One of my closest friend – I tried na sabihin na lumayo na sa mistake relationship, still tuloy tuloy pa rin, 

4. Kahit pilitin ko na pabayaan sila, wala ako magawa kasi im not the type na magtatapon ng relationship ng basta basta without any further reason. 

5. Even naging mag on si ex boyfriend and my friend, ako pa rin ang nakipag ayuz sa kanila to closed the issue, but I’m still thinking if they are sincere with their sorry kasi mararamdaman mo yung sincerity talaga. Pero wla ako maramdaman. 

6. May dumating na lalaki, na sobrang mag luv at mag give ng time saken, but di pa talaga ako prepared. Relationship is still not on my mind and I know that I am hurting that guy too much

7. Kahit ganun yung sigh ko about relationship, it doesn’t mean na love ko pa rin si ex, bakit ba kasi hindi maintindihan ng ibang tao na wala sa ikli ng panahon ang moving on, at may iilan na di naniniwalang di pa ako nka’move on, nahihirapan ako mag-explain kasi wala na akong iba masabi kundi “ok lang nmn talaga ako, that i don't have the same feelings for him anymore”, love really fades, and now? i do believe  it na... it's proven

8. may be last na nagpapalungkot sa’ken – “ Hindi ko na alam kung papaanu ko maibabalik yung tiwala ko sa ibang tao, after ng mga betrayals na napagdaanan ko, I can obviously admit the fact na ang pagiging mabait? Ay di din maganda, pero yung pagiging masama ay mas lalong di maganda, pero pag lumagay ka sa middle, you can’t assure na di ka rin maa’apektuhan kung yung mga tao na mismong pumapaligid sayo ang di marunong makiramdam at mag sorry” 

Nalulungkot ako kasi…. Bakit nagagawa ng ibang tao na saktan ka kahit wla kang ginagawa na masama sa kanila.

Understand who she is and what she wants

Guys working your way into a girl’s heart starts by understanding who she is and what she wants. Understanding how we fall in love means embracing our thoughts and ideas. Once you can understand what’s inside your hearts, then you can understand our feelings. Know that having a sense of humor, a personality, and a character is near the top of every girl’s wish list. We want someone that can intrigue us. Girls adore a man that’s not only makes her laugh, but keeps her laughing. Laughter makes every moment more memorable, so women naturally prefer to keep company with a great sense humor of you know? Each time reflects back on a funny moment you give her a brand new reason to smile. It can’t all be serious 24/7 life requires some silly time and good laughs. 

Girls enjoy sweet words, enticing glances, soft whispers and light touches. We are drawn to compassion and kindness, so a guy’s ability to be gracious and humble goes a lot farther than trying to act all cool. Trust me, we care more about who has passion, someone who is goal – oriented, someone who can give us a sense of security. We want to feel loved and free but at the same time protected. Perhaps the most important thing is to always be you. If you have to act like someone else to get her you’re going to lose her once the real you shows up. We want someone who will treat us well, one who will listen, communicate and is the best he can be. Be honest and let her know you’re a keeper. Showing her that you can take care of yourself will show her that you can take care of her.

I wish I could understand

.I don’t understand how you can smile all day long

…But keeping yourself pale all night

How pictures never changed

…But the people in them do

How your close friend become your worst enemy,

…Or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into a one good friend

How forever turns into a few short months

…That you’d do almost anything to get back

How can you let go of something,

...you once said you can live without

How even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same

How the people who once wanted to spend every seconds of their time with you,

…Thinks a few minute of their time is too much to pare

How people make promises,

…Despite the common IT IS PROMISES TO BE BROKEN

How people can erase you from their lives

…Just because it is easier than working things out

Things changed…

People change…

Feelings changed…

You know what? I don’t get the idea why people change – FAST…

Is it for the better of for the worse?

………..Maybe that is the thing of believing too much to people and put to my mind the idea that people will not change at all

……..That they stay the same

………..Well I guess I was wrong to believe into words that people have said and all things that had planned will always happened.

Never lose yourself

I guess there are really some things we can never explain. You love him but you gotta stay away from each other. 

S-P-A-C-E. 

It's something you know you both need... 

so you could think. 

so you could figure out what you really want. 

so you could breathe and find yourself. 

so.. so.. so.. 

you could clearly feel if love's still there. 

In love, you share a part of yourself with someone special. You share your time, your efforts, your heart. You let them in. You let them be a part of your life, not to be your entire life. In a relationship, never lose yourself. And never let anybody else lose their self in you. 

Love is supposed to take your breath away, not take your whole life away from you.His love should help you grow, not suffocate you. You give him love. You accept his love. Never love him more than yourself. Never let him love you more than his life. 

And never let his love become too much it may give you less oxygen to breathe and less space to move. Don't let his love be the reason for you to feel lost. 

"Cause sometimes you walk away from a relationship not because you fall out of love, but because love itself became a way out of hand "

And often times, you have to break your partner's heart to save yours.

when the stars go blue... over a glass of frappe

There are days when we wish we could just run away from life's shits and go to a place where nobody knows who you are. Place where you could have a peace of mind. Place where you can just be you. 

We all have our bad days. Times when we feel like no one understands us and we just want to be alone. 

The beach? 

It’s like it has a magic spell on it because it never fails to calm me. The wind, the sand, the peace it brings. It all makes me feel good inside. 

It allows me to think clearly. Everything that bothers me just goes away. It’s like I’m on my own little world and nothing can go wrong. I feel safe. I feel better. 

By the way, it all comes as I have had a great talk with my best of friend. We’d talk over a glass of frappe on a Friday afternoon ‘cause we’ve got nothing else to do. 

We’d eat each muffin with a cup of coffee, we don’t give a damn about the calories each cake contains. We’d tackle about just everything. 

About our past years when we were in High School, and we were meeting shockingly nice male classmates and friends 

About the excuses we make to our parents why we couldn’t save anything. 

About the fabulously cute skirt we saw on the shop the other day; 

About our ex – boyfriends; 

About the cute guy sitting next to us; 

About what we we’ll do the next days we might have time to have a cup of coffee again; 

About me going to school and patiently waiting to have my Diploma; About me not knowing what to do. About us. 

I miss the times like this. It’s really wonderful to have a girlfriend who’s always there when you need someone to talk to.

Sometimes I just need to be alone and then to be hug a little while

It doesn’t mean something’s wrong or I’m mad, or anything for that matter. Don’t assume something’s wrong, because I just need to think. I need time for myself every once in a while, why… know? I need time to think for myself and make decisions I don’t want anybody influencing. When I’m alone, it’s usually because I need to think about everything that’s going on in my life. It’s a way for me to relax and settle to the changes that might be happening. So please, just leave me alone. 

But as I was alone, it tells me that the greatest feeling in the world is to be around someone who wants to hold you, wants to kiss your forehead, wants to be around you, wants to call you at night, want to see you smile. But I think what’s better than that, is finding someone that does it all, because he wants to see you happy. I want to find the guy who can make me smile, just by the way he says hello when he picks up the phone. The guy who makes my hands shake when I’m sitting next to him and the guy who isn’t afraid to keep hugging me, I’m not really ready to be alone all by myself, but I know right now… I was prepared how to let go.

This a verse shared by my classmate.... Ms. Lea Mangcupang.. and I do appreciate her for sharing it with me...

 ²⁶ “‘Go to this people and say, 
“You will be ever hearing but never understanding; 
   you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.” 
²⁷ For this people’s heart has become calloused; 
   they hardly hear with their ears, 
   and they have closed their eyes. 
Otherwise they might see with their eyes, 
   hear with their ears, 
   understand with their hearts 
and turn, and I would heal them.’

Acts 28:27 Isaiah 6:9

Then you just hurt me again, but thank you for teaching me

Honestly I can’t even understand these inevitable feelings of mine. I can’t comprehend why my heart chooses to love despite all the pain and hurt you brought me. I don’t get why my brain can’t stop thinking and setting itself that you are really one for me. I don’t get how I can still tolerate this pain and still keep on hoping for him and most of all, I can’t seem to fully understand my senses from growing finder and until I totally miss him and fall for him all over again. 

He taught me and showed me many things. He taught me I can love, that people can care about me. Or so I thought he showed me the feeling of being in someone’s arms when they mean the world to you. There’s a feeling of compassion and lots of so many wonderful things. Thank you for that. You’ve showed me that people break promises that people don’t always hold true to their word. You’ve taught me that you can love someone more than anything in this world, yet hate them as much. That just because someone says something, that doesn’t mean it’s true. You’ve showed me how bad it hurts to have the guy you love and thought love will pushed you away and treat you as if you were worthless. You’ve showed me wonderful things just as well as horrible things. I do thank you for both. You’ve prepared me for the harsh world I am entering of two – faced people. People who say they care, but don’t always. Thank you for teaching me early.

LOVE,spark,creativity….. move on

The love between two people is committed relationships one of the most amazing feelings every person will ever experience. But after times things may start to fall into a routine and you start to lose site of the love and romance that helped get you two together in the first place. If you find that you’ve fallen into routine and you’ve fallen into a routine and the sparks is not there anymore you should sit back and think about what attracted you to your love in the princess. You’ll find that it wasn’t the big expressions of love, but rather the small things that helped you fall in love, like your first met, first real expression of honesty and love and first holding hands and hugs. You don’t have to do a lot to show love. Do simple things, spend a day, laying down, play some board games, take a trip out the city, go to a theme park, just do simple, cute things that will remind you of why you feel for each other in the first place. You’ll see that by using your creativity you’ll make more of an impact now, that what you did when you guys first met.

But continue walking forward and don’t look back. I know it’ll be difficult, but in the long run, you’ll be happier. Move on from those who continue to hurt you. If they wanted you in their life, they would have put an effort to keep you in it. But they didn’t, so don’t hurt yourself anymore. Stop trying so hard onto that person that won’t even give you a second glance. Move on from those that don’t deserve you.

The Search For Happiness

"I'm inward, outward, forward, backward happy all the time..." goes the lyrics of a popular song.

But is it possible to be happy all the time? Some people say yes. Happiness is just a choice which means you can choose to be happy regardless of the situation. "Don't worry, be happy!" is their mantra. 

Yet it is a fact that there are millions of human beings who are still searching for that elusive feeling of being happy. Happiness...Where are you? So they spend a lot of time looking for it.

Is it present in money? If so, then all the rich fellows should be the happiest people! But the reality shows otherwise.

Is is present in power? If so, then all the powerful individuals should be happy! Apparently not.

Can it be found in marriage? Oh, the answer can be found in the increasing number of divorce and separation cases.

Unhappiness is an integral part of life. In fact, life on earth is always a duality. Loneliness and happiness go together. Without experiencing loneliness, we can not appreciate happiness. So it is normal to feel lonely as long as it is not prolonged.

Many times the search for happiness is the obstacle to attaining the feeling of being happy. If happiness can not be found within, it can not be found anywhere else. So why search for it? Happiness is found along the road of our earthly journey, not just at the end of it.

It is an illusion to say that one can attain happiness if one gets one wants. For if this is true then nobody can be happy for as long as desire resides in his or her heart.

As for me, I want to be happy here and now. Not in another place. Not tomorrow for it may not come.

CHANGES

There are three things that are constant in this world: birth, death, and change. Of course you can add one, tax. But we will discuss tax in another post later. 

For non-believers of karma and reincarnation, we do not choose the circumstances of our birth and our death. But for those who believe, we are 100% responsible for everything that happen to us including our birth and death. I am included in the latter group. 

But our concern here is change. I guess every one agrees that nothing is really permanent in this world. Everything changes. And to believe otherwise, to hold on and not move on, is a perfect recipe of mental illness and the main reason for loneliness 

Seasons change. Our body changes. Relationship changes . Our views and philosophies change. 

That is why, we have to accept change. To be sure, we have to welcome it. Or maybe, it is best to become an agent of change. 

Every New Year, many people make resolutions. All for change; to become new, to become better. It is an admirable thing to do. Yet many try, only to find themselves doing the same things over and over again. Still, in trying, one has planted the seed for change. 

What about the Philippines? Well, we just hope there will be change. But instead of just merely hoping, can we not become real agents of change for our country? 

And for the world? Oh, how many times have I heard that, if I change, the world changes. And that's it my friends. To change the world, let's start with our own selves.

Be lucky as a WomanBe lucky as a Woman

I found this very interesting video on the net. it was created in the uk, using the icon that is james bond. But if only for the statistics you will learn, you must watch this wherever in the world you may be.

Okay... Not to be a downer... I just thought it would be a good thing for all of us to be aware of the reality of things. Most of the figures given in the video are in the UK, a first world society. What more in a third world society like ours? 

It is just something for you to think about. On the lighter side of things.. Yes! i want this to be a happy, not a sad, depressing one!!!! :) 

After watching the video… this are some of the inspirational message that I woul like to write on my notebook that comes from my mind -- you, yes you! who is wonderful, powerful, smart, sexy woman you. Who is emotional, vulnerable, naive, sometimes gullible you. who unpredictable, moody, full of surprises woman you. :) This is a video was set to remind yourself that you are precious…to remind yourself that you are special. .. You are special to your husband, to your parents or siblings, to your workmates… you are special to your friends, to your neighbors, to your acquaintances, to your special someone’s…

… And the very moment you start to feel that you are not precious, the moment you start to feel that you are not special. Stop. Just stop right there. Because you are. :).. If you've ever doubted yourself, felt insecure or unsure, know that every woman goes through that, that it is perfectly normal to feel that way once in a while, but that you have nothing to be fearful of, because you are uniquely you. There is no one else in the world that can do what you do! Every experience you've had, good or bad, only you have gone through that and only you have learned from that! There will be someone prettier, sexier, sweeter, smarter, and bubblier, yes, for sure there will be, but they still won't be able to do what you can do, what you were put on earth here to do, just like i said, because you are uniquely you! so celebrate who YOU are today. :)

I simply enjoyed writing and taking photos, now it is a site uniquely my own.

It was in high school when I discovered that I enjoy writing. Whether it be my class play or video presentation, doodles on my notebook, or a bit of fiction, I found that I liked expressing myself through words. Fast forward to when I was a Junior in college, and online social networking sites weren't big at all. Because of my curiosity I solely introduce myself in blogger. The thought of having an "online journal" appealed to me because I've always wanted to keep a journal, but never had the patience to fill it up. So something online seemed like a right fit for me, because instead of an actual notebook I had to keep and bring around with me, all I had to do was click, click, and click to see my journal. So it was in December of 2006 that my blog site was born. I decided to name my blog "http://crumpledtimes.blogspot.com/", with the disclaimer, “jhovy’s crumpled times ". Fast forward again to this day, my blog is actually five years old last month! Wow. I never imagined my blog would live this long! Plus, in the industry I am in, not a lot of my colleagues have blogs. I would like to think my blog, now the domain but still “jhovy’s crumpled times ", is something that makes me different and sets me apart. 

The good thing is, some of my journal written on my notebook for my subject is also an additional entry for my blog. Through that I could keep on gaining some of the most important memories of my life in the same way I could share to other people. 

I have included a chat box on it and I was glad that some of those were inspired to my entries. I didn’t even know that of all the blogs, it is mine which they see.

People of my year 2011

For quite some time now, I’ve been doing my own little list of the people who made the biggest impact on my life every end of the year. Lots of people may have their own list of people who "made the year what it was", but at the end of the day, in life, whether they may be celebrities, heroes, or ordinary folks, it’s the different people who influenced and moved us that really matter in our lives. 

The joy that a baby or the youngest brother brings to the family is like no other! For this whole year, my brother Xyris has been my wallpaper on every gadget I have, the content of my stories for all my friends, the topic of discussion within our whole family, and my happy thought. My family also 

My brother has made it to this list every single time. My family actually always makes it to this list (as it would yours too, I believe) but my brother has some major life event every year that makes me admire him strong character even more. 

Arlane, Aldrin and Gelai have been one of my best friends since our high school days. I can honestly say they are one of the people who know me the most. We sadly don't see each other as often as we used to, but they are still one of those who keep me grounded. 

Another huge blessing that 2011 brought to my life is by having good friends here in school. I have them and I’m here to thank them for believing in me and taking me out of my comfort zone. The girls I am with work all have their own winning traits that i constantly learn from. Their ideas, optimism, and zest for life remind me of the simple, happy things in life. They give me so much hope for letting “GOD” to come into my life. 

This year was the year I proved to myself that if you work hard and that if you love what you do and the people you are with, they will all love you back. it just feels so good to know that hard work with love really pays off. so much of what i know and who i am is because of my studies and i just feel so blessed everyday to be doing what i do, with people i love.

It's cold and there's something I hate to do - But I'm still doing it! (the longest title Ever!!)

No excuses afterwards: What insect came into my brain to post this... I would understand if tomorrow I don't have friends anymore. LOL! A very random fact on a cold morning brought about by the changing weather and the air condition on my back which I wanted to destroy right now. 

I noticed the changes in the wind at night. It's getting colder and colder. I know it will last until February and it gets me excited. 

But there is one thing I'm afraid to do or lazy to do rather. 

The reason why I was late for one minute at work. It's something I have to do. 

I can't sleep or step out of the house and meet friends without doing it. 

It's a must but it's taking me too long to complete the process and there is no shortcut to get it done (doing it twice a day), that's why I hate doing it. BUT I HAVE TO. 

I'll leave it hanging for you to guess. I know you'll get it and would understand why :) you know my weakness. 

If ever we'll meet someday around late December to February, and I'll be late....you know the culprit so don't be mad at me. Okay!