Sometimes I just need to be alone and then to be hug a little while

It doesn’t mean something’s wrong or I’m mad, or anything for that matter. Don’t assume something’s wrong, because I just need to think. I need time for myself every once in a while, why… know? I need time to think for myself and make decisions I don’t want anybody influencing. When I’m alone, it’s usually because I need to think about everything that’s going on in my life. It’s a way for me to relax and settle to the changes that might be happening. So please, just leave me alone. 

But as I was alone, it tells me that the greatest feeling in the world is to be around someone who wants to hold you, wants to kiss your forehead, wants to be around you, wants to call you at night, want to see you smile. But I think what’s better than that, is finding someone that does it all, because he wants to see you happy. I want to find the guy who can make me smile, just by the way he says hello when he picks up the phone. The guy who makes my hands shake when I’m sitting next to him and the guy who isn’t afraid to keep hugging me, I’m not really ready to be alone all by myself, but I know right now… I was prepared how to let go.

This a verse shared by my classmate.... Ms. Lea Mangcupang.. and I do appreciate her for sharing it with me...

 ²⁶ “‘Go to this people and say, 
“You will be ever hearing but never understanding; 
   you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.” 
²⁷ For this people’s heart has become calloused; 
   they hardly hear with their ears, 
   and they have closed their eyes. 
Otherwise they might see with their eyes, 
   hear with their ears, 
   understand with their hearts 
and turn, and I would heal them.’

Acts 28:27 Isaiah 6:9

Then you just hurt me again, but thank you for teaching me

Honestly I can’t even understand these inevitable feelings of mine. I can’t comprehend why my heart chooses to love despite all the pain and hurt you brought me. I don’t get why my brain can’t stop thinking and setting itself that you are really one for me. I don’t get how I can still tolerate this pain and still keep on hoping for him and most of all, I can’t seem to fully understand my senses from growing finder and until I totally miss him and fall for him all over again. 

He taught me and showed me many things. He taught me I can love, that people can care about me. Or so I thought he showed me the feeling of being in someone’s arms when they mean the world to you. There’s a feeling of compassion and lots of so many wonderful things. Thank you for that. You’ve showed me that people break promises that people don’t always hold true to their word. You’ve taught me that you can love someone more than anything in this world, yet hate them as much. That just because someone says something, that doesn’t mean it’s true. You’ve showed me how bad it hurts to have the guy you love and thought love will pushed you away and treat you as if you were worthless. You’ve showed me wonderful things just as well as horrible things. I do thank you for both. You’ve prepared me for the harsh world I am entering of two – faced people. People who say they care, but don’t always. Thank you for teaching me early.

LOVE,spark,creativity….. move on

The love between two people is committed relationships one of the most amazing feelings every person will ever experience. But after times things may start to fall into a routine and you start to lose site of the love and romance that helped get you two together in the first place. If you find that you’ve fallen into routine and you’ve fallen into a routine and the sparks is not there anymore you should sit back and think about what attracted you to your love in the princess. You’ll find that it wasn’t the big expressions of love, but rather the small things that helped you fall in love, like your first met, first real expression of honesty and love and first holding hands and hugs. You don’t have to do a lot to show love. Do simple things, spend a day, laying down, play some board games, take a trip out the city, go to a theme park, just do simple, cute things that will remind you of why you feel for each other in the first place. You’ll see that by using your creativity you’ll make more of an impact now, that what you did when you guys first met.

But continue walking forward and don’t look back. I know it’ll be difficult, but in the long run, you’ll be happier. Move on from those who continue to hurt you. If they wanted you in their life, they would have put an effort to keep you in it. But they didn’t, so don’t hurt yourself anymore. Stop trying so hard onto that person that won’t even give you a second glance. Move on from those that don’t deserve you.

The Search For Happiness

"I'm inward, outward, forward, backward happy all the time..." goes the lyrics of a popular song.

But is it possible to be happy all the time? Some people say yes. Happiness is just a choice which means you can choose to be happy regardless of the situation. "Don't worry, be happy!" is their mantra. 

Yet it is a fact that there are millions of human beings who are still searching for that elusive feeling of being happy. Happiness...Where are you? So they spend a lot of time looking for it.

Is it present in money? If so, then all the rich fellows should be the happiest people! But the reality shows otherwise.

Is is present in power? If so, then all the powerful individuals should be happy! Apparently not.

Can it be found in marriage? Oh, the answer can be found in the increasing number of divorce and separation cases.

Unhappiness is an integral part of life. In fact, life on earth is always a duality. Loneliness and happiness go together. Without experiencing loneliness, we can not appreciate happiness. So it is normal to feel lonely as long as it is not prolonged.

Many times the search for happiness is the obstacle to attaining the feeling of being happy. If happiness can not be found within, it can not be found anywhere else. So why search for it? Happiness is found along the road of our earthly journey, not just at the end of it.

It is an illusion to say that one can attain happiness if one gets one wants. For if this is true then nobody can be happy for as long as desire resides in his or her heart.

As for me, I want to be happy here and now. Not in another place. Not tomorrow for it may not come.

CHANGES

There are three things that are constant in this world: birth, death, and change. Of course you can add one, tax. But we will discuss tax in another post later. 

For non-believers of karma and reincarnation, we do not choose the circumstances of our birth and our death. But for those who believe, we are 100% responsible for everything that happen to us including our birth and death. I am included in the latter group. 

But our concern here is change. I guess every one agrees that nothing is really permanent in this world. Everything changes. And to believe otherwise, to hold on and not move on, is a perfect recipe of mental illness and the main reason for loneliness 

Seasons change. Our body changes. Relationship changes . Our views and philosophies change. 

That is why, we have to accept change. To be sure, we have to welcome it. Or maybe, it is best to become an agent of change. 

Every New Year, many people make resolutions. All for change; to become new, to become better. It is an admirable thing to do. Yet many try, only to find themselves doing the same things over and over again. Still, in trying, one has planted the seed for change. 

What about the Philippines? Well, we just hope there will be change. But instead of just merely hoping, can we not become real agents of change for our country? 

And for the world? Oh, how many times have I heard that, if I change, the world changes. And that's it my friends. To change the world, let's start with our own selves.

Be lucky as a WomanBe lucky as a Woman

I found this very interesting video on the net. it was created in the uk, using the icon that is james bond. But if only for the statistics you will learn, you must watch this wherever in the world you may be.

Okay... Not to be a downer... I just thought it would be a good thing for all of us to be aware of the reality of things. Most of the figures given in the video are in the UK, a first world society. What more in a third world society like ours? 

It is just something for you to think about. On the lighter side of things.. Yes! i want this to be a happy, not a sad, depressing one!!!! :) 

After watching the video… this are some of the inspirational message that I woul like to write on my notebook that comes from my mind -- you, yes you! who is wonderful, powerful, smart, sexy woman you. Who is emotional, vulnerable, naive, sometimes gullible you. who unpredictable, moody, full of surprises woman you. :) This is a video was set to remind yourself that you are precious…to remind yourself that you are special. .. You are special to your husband, to your parents or siblings, to your workmates… you are special to your friends, to your neighbors, to your acquaintances, to your special someone’s…

… And the very moment you start to feel that you are not precious, the moment you start to feel that you are not special. Stop. Just stop right there. Because you are. :).. If you've ever doubted yourself, felt insecure or unsure, know that every woman goes through that, that it is perfectly normal to feel that way once in a while, but that you have nothing to be fearful of, because you are uniquely you. There is no one else in the world that can do what you do! Every experience you've had, good or bad, only you have gone through that and only you have learned from that! There will be someone prettier, sexier, sweeter, smarter, and bubblier, yes, for sure there will be, but they still won't be able to do what you can do, what you were put on earth here to do, just like i said, because you are uniquely you! so celebrate who YOU are today. :)

I simply enjoyed writing and taking photos, now it is a site uniquely my own.

It was in high school when I discovered that I enjoy writing. Whether it be my class play or video presentation, doodles on my notebook, or a bit of fiction, I found that I liked expressing myself through words. Fast forward to when I was a Junior in college, and online social networking sites weren't big at all. Because of my curiosity I solely introduce myself in blogger. The thought of having an "online journal" appealed to me because I've always wanted to keep a journal, but never had the patience to fill it up. So something online seemed like a right fit for me, because instead of an actual notebook I had to keep and bring around with me, all I had to do was click, click, and click to see my journal. So it was in December of 2006 that my blog site was born. I decided to name my blog "http://crumpledtimes.blogspot.com/", with the disclaimer, “jhovy’s crumpled times ". Fast forward again to this day, my blog is actually five years old last month! Wow. I never imagined my blog would live this long! Plus, in the industry I am in, not a lot of my colleagues have blogs. I would like to think my blog, now the domain but still “jhovy’s crumpled times ", is something that makes me different and sets me apart. 

The good thing is, some of my journal written on my notebook for my subject is also an additional entry for my blog. Through that I could keep on gaining some of the most important memories of my life in the same way I could share to other people. 

I have included a chat box on it and I was glad that some of those were inspired to my entries. I didn’t even know that of all the blogs, it is mine which they see.

People of my year 2011

For quite some time now, I’ve been doing my own little list of the people who made the biggest impact on my life every end of the year. Lots of people may have their own list of people who "made the year what it was", but at the end of the day, in life, whether they may be celebrities, heroes, or ordinary folks, it’s the different people who influenced and moved us that really matter in our lives. 

The joy that a baby or the youngest brother brings to the family is like no other! For this whole year, my brother Xyris has been my wallpaper on every gadget I have, the content of my stories for all my friends, the topic of discussion within our whole family, and my happy thought. My family also 

My brother has made it to this list every single time. My family actually always makes it to this list (as it would yours too, I believe) but my brother has some major life event every year that makes me admire him strong character even more. 

Arlane, Aldrin and Gelai have been one of my best friends since our high school days. I can honestly say they are one of the people who know me the most. We sadly don't see each other as often as we used to, but they are still one of those who keep me grounded. 

Another huge blessing that 2011 brought to my life is by having good friends here in school. I have them and I’m here to thank them for believing in me and taking me out of my comfort zone. The girls I am with work all have their own winning traits that i constantly learn from. Their ideas, optimism, and zest for life remind me of the simple, happy things in life. They give me so much hope for letting “GOD” to come into my life. 

This year was the year I proved to myself that if you work hard and that if you love what you do and the people you are with, they will all love you back. it just feels so good to know that hard work with love really pays off. so much of what i know and who i am is because of my studies and i just feel so blessed everyday to be doing what i do, with people i love.

It's cold and there's something I hate to do - But I'm still doing it! (the longest title Ever!!)

No excuses afterwards: What insect came into my brain to post this... I would understand if tomorrow I don't have friends anymore. LOL! A very random fact on a cold morning brought about by the changing weather and the air condition on my back which I wanted to destroy right now. 

I noticed the changes in the wind at night. It's getting colder and colder. I know it will last until February and it gets me excited. 

But there is one thing I'm afraid to do or lazy to do rather. 

The reason why I was late for one minute at work. It's something I have to do. 

I can't sleep or step out of the house and meet friends without doing it. 

It's a must but it's taking me too long to complete the process and there is no shortcut to get it done (doing it twice a day), that's why I hate doing it. BUT I HAVE TO. 

I'll leave it hanging for you to guess. I know you'll get it and would understand why :) you know my weakness. 

If ever we'll meet someday around late December to February, and I'll be late....you know the culprit so don't be mad at me. Okay!